soulmates and washing machines

Eve, The Apple of My Eye - Bell X1

2012-01-22T12:52:00.001+11:00

There isn't much in life that is more peaceful and satisfying than lying around with a good book or magazine. So today I decided to treat myself to both.

Gemma Pocket Tote Bag from Sportsgirl // Hope Friendship Bracelet from Sportsgirl in support of the Butterfly Foundation // Lula Magazine issue 13 // Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Johnathan Safran Foer // ROC Terri Boots from Wanted Shoes

I read Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close in extension English in high school, but analysing a text always seems to detract from it's beauty a little so I'm eager to have another read, this time without the pressure of having to learn quotes and write an essay afterwards.

I'm a massive fan of the bucket bag, so I've been quietly drooling over the Gemma Tote since I first saw it in stores, I am very glad to call this beauty mine, it is amazingly soft, and I love the splash of colour on the front pocket.

I finally got around to treating myself to a copy of Lula, which I actually happened upon by accident in a little newsagency. I've had a quick flick through, but am looking forward to properly devouring it later today.

I hope everyone has a very happy Sunday, and that the rain doesn't mess up anyone's hair or mood too badly.

(: xx

Sour Cherry - The Kills

2012-01-18T15:46:00.000+11:00

I went on a little impromptu shopping trip today and I'm feeling pretty pleased with my bargain haul!

L to R: Bauhaus Jacket $20 // Sportsgirl Tote Bag $9.95 // Sportsgirl String Bracelet $4.95 // Glassons Jeans $30 // Bauhaus Dress $20

Myer was having some strange $20 Bauhaus sale, which I clearly took full advantage of, resulting in this adorable outfit:

Nailpolish: Sportsgirl "Nail It!" in Lace with three coats of Chi Chi Crystal Topcoat. Accent nail also has a coat of Revlon Scented "Grape Fizz".

Glassons' Miss Who Skinny Jeans are seriously the love of my life! They are actually tight and cling to the leg all the way down instead of creating a pool of fabric around my knees and ankles like most skinny jeans do, and they're made of very thin and stretchy denim which makes them wearable in both the cold months with boots and in slightly cooler weather with a pair of flats.

And now I get to tighten the purse strings yet again! Hope everyone is having a Merry Wednesday and that none of your plans have fallen through due to the carelessness of others. Yep. xx

(Disclaimer: Not once have I claimed to not be passive aggressive.)

Who's Loving You - The Ray Mann Three

2012-01-16T21:41:00.000+11:00

Happy 2012 and Christmas and everything lovely people! Clearly keeping up with blogging was not my new years resolution - whoops!

I recieved some lovely goodies for Christmas including these additions to my perfume collection:

Elizabeth Arden Green Tea "Exotic" Perfume // Issey Miyake L'Eau D'Issey Spray on Moisturiser // Issey Miyake L'Eau D'Issey Florale Perfume // Elizabeth Arden Green Tea "Summer" Perfume // M by Mariah Carey // Narciso Rodriguez For Her In Colour // Elie Saab La Parfum

Adorable Ikea stuffed toys (the carrot and broccoli to go with my strawberry) and a Trackpad for my iMac from my wonderful boyfriend.

(Pictured on the new bed sheets I got from my parents)

A lovely pair of chunky sandals:

And most stunningly the demise of my car's transmission meant I was super duper spoiled with a brand new car from my parents. It is seriously the most amazing gift I've ever received and the biggest responsibility/most awesome thing ever.

I also treated myself to a few things over Christmas and New Years.

Skull Bracelet from Sportsgirl - I have always had a thing for skulls, I think it is a memory of when I was 14 years old and I thought I was hardcore.

2012 Diary from Kikki K // Purple Lined Journal from Leuchtturm 917 // Notebook from Rob Ryan // Butterfly Journal from Christina Re

Stationary - Stationary has been my favourite thing since I was a little kid (see references to my paper-hoarding habits), the purple journal is attempting to a serve as a diary so I can sort my emotional shit out without annoying every living (and in some cases inanimate) thing around me.

Absolutely Alice by OPI // Jaune Trendy by Bourjois Paris // Rouge Fashionista by Bourjois Paris // Crystal Topcoat by Chi Chi // Grape Fizz (scented) by Revlon // Advanced Hard as Nails by Sally Hansen // Revlon nail files

Nailpolish - Well this is pretty obvious. Hello obsession.

The Chi Chi Crystal Topcoat is particularly amazing! It is full of lovely flakie glitter and immediately livens up any mani (particularly darker colours - WOW) with its flecks that shine green or orange depending on the light.

Tea - not so much a splurge but more of an addiction, Dilmah's Rose with French Vanilla is delicious! It has such a delicate fruity flavour. Yum yum yum.

I also seem to have stockpiled an abundance of new clothes, which I have managed to fit in my closet by donating a lot of my older clothing to Vinnies, but I've been trying to move away from buying any more clothes and instead focus on coming up with new ways to wear and accessorize the clothes I have. It seems that my tastes in clothing have become more and more erratic, with my recent purchases including leopard prints and studs. Both things I never seemed to like in the past.

The most astute of you may notice that I've lopped off about 1/3 of my hair, if you have then congratulations - you are officially more observant than my actual family members who did not notice. For the record, this is how long my hair was before I cut it:

It is noticeable now? Yep, thought so.
(Also obvious is my chronic bitchface/squinty eyes. Why am I even squinting? Does anyone know?)

Hope everyone had an amazing holiday season, I know I did. Mostly because of the amazing people I spent it with. xxx

Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard

2011-12-17T14:51:00.000+11:00

This blog seems in danger of becoming nail polish oriented, but I promise it won't. Although I cannot promise there won't frequently be some sort of NOTD or NOTW post. I haven't done much but hang out with the boyfriend and drive my mother around lately, so this is the most exciting offering I have.

Obviously I have a rather large collection of nail polish but my manicures don't have a tendency to be particularly imaginative. Generally I either just paint my nails a single colour, possibly with an accent nail or glitter topcoat, or else I just alternate two colours throughout the manicure.

Lately I've been looking at nail art tutorials online and I've been particularly enamored with gradient nails, although I have also been adamant that I lack the ability to do such a thing. Until today (when boredom and a chocolate overdose which made it essentially impossible for me to get up), lead to the death of a kitchen sponge and this particular manicure:

It looks much better in real life, particularly in the sunlight, since the difference between the two darker colours isn't as obvious when photographed. I used the method that pretty much every single gradient tutorial explains, so I'll save you my convoluted explanations and instead send you here.

These are the colours I used, and in place of a cosmetic sponge I just stole an unused kitchen sponge from my mother.

L to R: Cutex in Peaches (I used this as the base colour) // China Glaze in Orange Pacific (This hasn't photographed well and is actually very shimmery, I used this as the lighter colour I sponged on) // China Glaze in Life Preserver (Darker colour I sponged on the tips of my nails) // OPI in Teenage Dream (Used as a topcoat in order to give a glittery finish and help blend the colours together better) // Happy little piece of the kitchen sponge I cut up

Not Pictured: Seche Clear Base Coat // Seche Vite Fast Drying Top Coat

Well I'm pretty pleased with myself, and I just glanced outside and it looks like the weather is starting to look a tiny bit summery so I think I'm off to go sit in the sun and harass the cat for a bit. Happy Saturday everyone! (:

Make Me Proud - Drake feat. Nicki Minaj

2011-12-14T20:00:00.000+11:00

So way back when during exams in an attempt to avoid actually doing anything particularly productive (and in an attempt to stop buying clothes - because I seriously cannot even close my closet anymore) I've developed a new obsession with nail polish. Which realistically places me in the headspace of pretty much every other blogger out there. In my obsession I've stumbled upon this whole world of blogs dedicated to only nail polish and it kind of blows my mind a little. Actually I was reading about the lipstick index and the idea that the new economic index is the nail polish index. Which makes a lot of sense if you think about it. The only issue with me is that I have the hand eye coordination of a snake (they have no hands, get it??! GET IT??!) and even less patience.

Regardless it has become somewhat of an obsession and I now have more nail polish than you could poke a stick at! (Although why you would poke a stick at a nail polish collection I do not know.) It feels so lovely and feminine to be able to paint my nails pretty girly colours, and it feels somewhat rebellious to paint them dark colours (clearly rebellion isn't my strong point). Mainly though, having been a habitual nail-biter from age 10 till this year, it feels really great to actually have long nails.

Some of my favourite polishes:

L to R: China Glaze in Life Preserver // Sally Hansen Crackle Overcoat in Fractured Foil // OPI Designer Series in Magic // Rimmel Scented Lasting Finish in Strawberry Fizz // Maybelline Mini ColoRama in Wonder Violet

L to R: Rimmel Lasting Finish in Green Grass // OPI in Planks a Lot // China Glaze in Kaleidoscope Him Out // OPI in Teenage Dream // Revlon in Minted

L to R: Rimmel 60 Seconds in Black Out // China Glaze Crackle in Fault Line // OPI Shatter in Blue // Maybelline Mini ColoRama in Ultra Violet // OPI in Rainbow Connection

L to R: China Glaze in Sky High-Top // China Glaze Crackle in Broken Hearted // OPI in Mermaid's Tears // China Glaze in Tinsel Town // Rimmel Lasting Finish in Disco Ball

L to R: La Rosa Crackle Shatter in Sea Weed // OPI in Don't Mess With OPI // Rimmel 60 Seconds in Coralicious // OPI Shatter in Black // China Glaze in Doll House

L to R: China Glaze in Salsa // Sportsgirl Nail It in Lace // OPI in My Address Is "Hollywood" // Rimmel Scented Lasting Finish in Apricot Punch // Maybelline Mini ColoRama in Party Blue

L to R: China Glaze in Ruby Pumps // OPI in Uh Oh Roll Down The Window // China Glaze in IDK // Sally Hansen Hard As Nails in First Blush // Rimmel 60 Seconds in Chocolate Fountain

L to R: China Glaze in Techno // OPI in My Private Jet // China Glaze in Channelesque // Rimmel Lasting Finish in Misty Jade // OPI in The One That Got Away

L to R: Revlon in Vixen // Rimmel 60 Seconds in Princess Pink // China Glaze in Platinum Gold // OPI Designer Series in Reflection // Rimmel 60 Seconds in Grey Matter

L to R: OPI Designer Series in Extravagance // Rimmel 60 Seconds in Sky High // China Glaze in TTYL // China Glaze in He's Going In Circles // Maybelline Mini ColoRama in Urban Orange

And of course, base and top coats are pretty important when you're trying to create a lasting manicure (although to be honest mine are usually demolished and changed within a few days)...

L to R: Seche Plus Fortified Strengthener // OPI Start to Finish Top and Base Coat // Seche Prep Nail Cleanser // Rimmel Pro Mattifying Topcoat // Seche Vite Fast Drying Top Coat

Told you I am obsessed! If law school doesn't work out, I can always open my own nail salon, I clearly already have all the necessary equipment. And just as a point of interest for Sydneysiders who are also nail polish enthusiasts, you should check out Pro Nail Supply in Bankstown for cost price China Glaze, OPI, Seche, Essie and Orly.

Our Perfect Disease - The Wombats

2011-12-12T13:00:00.000+11:00

I have a real obsession with paper, and as a result I horde everything. Wrapping paper, old magazines, catalogs, cards, postcards, fabric, ribbons, tags, art and craft materials - you name it and I have it. As a result of all this accumulated ~~wonder and awe~~ crap, when I find myself with nothing (I want) to do I end up scrap-booking. Due to the current absence of my boyfriend, today I went a bit crazy and scanned a whole bunch of my little scrap-booked motifs, most of which came from moleskines and my memory board. I've put them all on my tumblr but here are a few of my favourites:

Head on over to tumblr for more scrap-bookey goodness. I'll most likely be scrap-booking and scanning more over the next few weeks since I seem to have developed a taste for it again. (:

Winner - Justin Timberlake feat. Jamie Foxx

2011-11-20T13:30:00.000+11:00

Law exams are making me want to rip out all my hair, eat copious amounts of ice-cream and burn down law-related buildings. Hope you are all having a better time of it. (:

City Grrrl - Cansei De Ser Sexy

2011-11-14T16:00:00.000+11:00

On the 11/11/11 the journalism society had yet another party, this time to celebrate the end of the year. I spent the night-time 11:11 at said party and had a marvelous time. Not to brag or anything, but my skills as treasurer are amazing and as a result the bar tab was sort of giant, also having done two law subjects this semester I got the chance to catch up with my journalism friends properly for the first time in what seemed like an eternity.

The 11:11 in the morning I spent with the boyfriend, actually staring intensely at my phone waiting for the exact moment. We both forgot to make wishes, which kind of made the moment redundant, but then we went out for icecream so the whole thing was quickly forgotten.

Tighten Up - The Black Keys

2011-11-02T12:30:00.000+11:00

Let me give you a little window into why I am quite so neurotic.

So I recently got my provisional license and with it I inherited the old family car. A beautiful little Volkswagen golf. I also received a heady dosage of freedom. Yippee! However, quite unfortunately, having a car has not magically made me a less neurotic person. Actually, I now have a whole new bunch of things to freak out about.

Is someone going to steal my car?
(Well probably not since it has an immobiliser and to steal it would in fact require a tow truck.)

Is someone going to scratch my car in a parking lot?
(Admittedly this has already happened to me and wasn't as dire as anticipated, I was mostly just confused.)

Am I going to break the law and lose my license and have to catch buses again?
(Hope not.)

Am I going to crash into something/someone and die?
(I'll get back to you on this one.)

The point is, that I can cope with these new issues, however my father does not necessarily agree. Before I begin with this anecdote, let me clarify that my father did spend 130 hours teaching a very directionally challenged teenage girl (ie. me) how to do unnatural things like reverse parking. This is probably why he is so crazy.

On the weekend I went on a stupidly long drive around the Sutherland Shire in order to film overpasses and other fascinating things like that for my journalism assignment. Before I left dad kindly handed me a 50 and told me to fill the car up with petrol. This seems pretty normal, and I had filled the car up before while on my Ls (under dad's watchful eye of course) so I figured it wasn't a big deal.

Yet somehow it was.

I was attempting to leave the house when my dad asked me to show him how to fill up the petrol tank. Instantly I opened my car door and pulled the little lever that opens the little door to the tank. I then opened it and screwed off the cap. I turned it slightly the wrong way before getting it off, but hey, no dramas.

Dad however, was loving it. "WRONG! YOU TURNED IT THE WRONG WAY!" he told me very enthusiastically. I am used to this kind of thing so I just smiled and finished taking the cap off. I realized I was still being watched expectantly, so with an edge of sarcasm I turned around and grabbed the imaginary petrol pump and turned to put imaginary petrol in my real car. I was exaggeratedly miming my actions when suddenly my dad made to grab the petrol pump out of my hands (realizing about halfway through this action that he couldn't do so and hence stopping with his hands awkwardly in the air).

"WRONG! YOU WOULD HAVE GOTTEN PETROL ALL OVER THE SIDE OF THE CAR AND ALL OVER YOUR SHOES. THAT'S IT! I'LL FILL THE CAR UP WHEN YOU GET HOME SINCE YOU OBVIOUSLY CANNOT."

That's right, I am probably the only person in the whole world who has ever held an imaginary petrol pump incorrectly. I also was given a lecture on the fact that when a pump says diesel on it, then it is not petrol (!!) and therefore putting it in the tank would ruin my engine.

I'll have you know, and I say this with pride in my voice, that I did later fill the car up, with no incident aside from when I got my wallet out of my bag to pay and somehow tangled myself in my bag strap. I suppose that you cannot blame my father for not having the foresight to make me act out an imaginary bag strap.

Quarantine - Mute Math

2011-10-30T12:34:00.000+11:00

I am a tiny bit addicted the the Hipstamatic app. Just a tiny bit... It seriously makes life seem so dreamy and attractive, although to be fair I mostly use it to photograph my friends, boyfriend and cat, who actually are pretty attractive! ♥

If You Leave - Nada Surf

2011-10-25T12:28:00.000+11:00

It had been a pretty good week for me. I finally got my provisional driver's licence, a car and the white iPhone which I so badly coveted. To mark this I decided to buy myself a new moleskine. On Saturday I decided to painstakingly stencil the front of the moleskine with some song lyrics.

If You Leave - Nada Surf.

(Song originally by OMD but I like this cover better because Nada Surf are amazing.)

Cutting a stencil (and my fingertips).

Painting!

Peeling!

And varnishing to prevent chipping.

I still haven't written/drawn anything in it, I've just been quietly carrying it around and looking at it occasionally.

Lose It (In the End) - Mark Ronson feat. Ghostface Killah

2011-07-02T13:28:00.001+10:00

Hello! I'm back with more crazy!

I'm sort of feeling alien about blogging since it has been so long. I'm also craving having something to write about/somewhere to write it, so I might be contemplating occasionally writing opinion pieces or some such crap. Lord knows I have quite a few opinions to spare/share.

Anyhow, that's neither here nor there, the main point of this entry is to share some of my purchases. Please excuse my chronic case of bitchface.

I clearly have a shopping addiction, but to be fair pretty much all of these items were on sale!

In other news I finally got up off my ass and bought OPI's Black Shatter nailpolish. I know, I'm more than a little late to that particular party. I used it for the first time this morning, and it is probably the most exciting thing that has ever happened to me (not really though).

(Nails are painted with Maybelline's Party Blue that I raved about here with a top coat of OPI Black Shatter.)

I also bought the mini pack of OPI's Katy Perry Collection because I couldn't chose between them! Yay glitter!

I hope everyone has an amazing weekend. (:

Your Woman - White Town

2011-06-30T11:02:00.000+10:00

It has been an eternity since I blogged, I know. So just to get back into it here is a teeny tiny little entry to remind everyone that I haven't gone and died. I did in fact survive my exams and the many assignments that were hurled at me. I have since been sitting around feasting on lollipops and watching my Buffy box set... among other things.

(It is sort of ridiculous just how much UTS pride I have. And yes those are matching hoodies, and we do wear them in public.)

There should be a proper post with all the clothing I have bought since I last blogged (and trust me there is a lot) in the next few days. Here is a tiny glimpse of some of what is to come:

Hope everyone is having a lovely week! ♥

In Lust You Can Hear The Axe Fall - Xiu Xiu

2011-05-29T11:47:00.002+10:00

I went on a massive shopping spree yesterday, so you can expect a collection of outfit posts during my assignment procrastination in the coming weeks. For now though, here are photos from a party I was involved in organising on Friday night.

Some of the people featured in these photos are Jess, Sophia, Amy, Sohan, Jacqui, Michaela and Ellie, who have amazing blogs you should go check out.
(Click their names for links duh.)

The Calender Hung Itself - Bright Eyes

2011-05-22T18:39:00.003+10:00

I've been a tad bit snowed under by work and my own emotions, and probably will be for the rest of the semester. I hope to write some lovely, less aggressive blog entries soon though. I am continuing to coast through life with only a few minor obstacles.

I got to spend my day with the original love of my life:

While alone I've been listening to today's title song on repeat. I think I should ban myself from Bright Eyes because I'm already too intense as it is.

And does he cry through broken sentences like, "I love you far too much"?

Things about myself that are problematic (aside form my intensity) are as follows:
a) I seem to be addicted to shopping
b) I am emotionally volatile
c) I seem to get too attached to the wrong people
d) I cannot drive to save my life
e) And I say fuck too much

I am also very mean to myself in my diary, but then who isn't?

But back to point a), I have once again been shopping, this time searching for capes or ponchos or whatever you want to call them. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure why people are wearing these again, and I seem to feel like I should be against them, and yet I wanted one to the point that it was crippling. I bought two... they were cheap?! When I wear them I like to spread my arms out and loudly proclaim:

"I AM A SUGAR GLIDER!!!"

(This is probably why I'm so popular.)

I like to pretend that I'm a delicate fairy princess with long golden curls wearing unusual clothing (when really I look like everyone else at UTS), this is because I'm going to be a lawyer in a few years, constantly wearing suits with a straight brown bob. That's life. (And I'm looking forward to it and I don't care what that says about me.)

On Friday there was the muchly dreaded News Day, where we get assigned a story in the morning and have to file it at the end of the day. I was terrified for many reasons. Terrified I'd get sent to somewhere very far away and very confusing, terrified that I'd have to make 60 phone calls in order to find a single person willing to talk to me and mostly terrified I was overdressed.

You see, I decided to dress corporate, because as mentioned above, I like it. I like wearing black and straightening my hair and looking like I belong in an office. I only really have one outfit appropriate for this, and when I get to pull it out I am joyful. I made it as far as the train before I started to worry that perhaps I was going to be sent to a protest or rally or something, and look completely awkward. But nah, I got sent to court. I was blissful.

Fact about Becky: I find case law soothing. When I am upset/stressed/confused/angry I like to read it. Even better if I can listen to it. I like courts. Law nerd alert!

More interestingly (maybe), I pretty much consistently smell like coconuts. Thanks to my conditioner, a lovely body butter I stole from Sophia and the perfume in this ghastly bottle:

Honestly, Gwen Steffani - what. the. hell?!!

I bought the perfume in Lane Cove when I was there with Jess again. Just as a sidenote, I happen to love Jess.

(I also wear this cardigan A LOT.)

Speaking of love, I am now the proud owner of a bag that I think is actually my handbag-soulmate. That's a difficult honour to have bestowed upon you when you're a handbag (I'm fickle) so this bag is pretty amazing. It isn't crazy oversized looking, yet somehow fits my laptop in its crazy padded case. It is also khaki, which is my favourite colour ever, and also essentially the colour of my eyes.

Sorry this has been long and lacking in any sort of coherent flow. It has been sitting in my drafts, occasionally being changed for about two weeks now. At least I've been procrastinating blogging, rather than my uni work.

Hope everyone is feeling amazing. (:

Rich Kids - Washington

2011-05-12T19:44:00.000+10:00

I'm in a bit of a bad mood, which is directed at life in general. Once I pull myself out of it and can blog in a way that isn't sarcastic or snarky, a lovely long post is coming! In the meantime have some of my rubbish moleskine drawings!

♥

Shot Yourself In The Foot Again - Skream Feat. Example

2011-05-04T19:00:00.000+10:00

So it looks like I temporarily disappeared off the face of the planet again. I didn't though I promise, just the blogging planet! I have been busy eating more chocolate than any human should and shopping and being a proper uni student who actually does her work. I have also bought the Sims 3, which is more than a little bit accountable for my disappearance from most social interactions.

I've also been creative lately as well and finally made a second memory board for my bedroom.

I also shifted things around on my old memoryboard which is still my favourite. It is so great having such an easy away to display the images that inspire me. And so easy too, my staplegun is my best friend.

I've also been taking advantage of the increasingly cooler weather to start wearing my favourite winter pieces again and to buy a few new goodies!

L to R:
1. Military-Styled Trenchcoat - Glassons, Baggy Black Long-Sleeved Tee - Glassons, Ballerina Patterned Skirt - Dangerfield
2. Stag Jumper (worn as dress) - Jeans West
3. Patterned Dress - Unknown, Khaki Anorak - Sportsgirl, Peruvian Hat - Glassons

I wore the stag jumper to a friend's house recently for a journalism get together. I love my journo friends, we're a ridiculously good looking bunch!

Speaking of journalism, I spent my day in Lane Cove searching for a story for my next assignment (which I found), and I also happened upon a few bargains. I finally bought Marc Jacob's Daisy, after spending a very long time lusting after it but doing nothing to get it.

I also picked up a few lovely bits of clothing for really great prices. I've really been wanting to expand my collection of pinks for winter and I've succeeded. I am not exaggerating when I say that shopping is honestly an addiction for me.

Oh well, there are worse addictions I could have, right? Keep smiling everyone! (:

When You Walk In The Room - Fyfe Dangerfield

2011-04-21T13:44:00.003+10:00

I get really excited when I think that someone understands me. It is mainly a consequence of just how much of a rarity that is. It is also because I have a crippling fear of being alone, but if someone else understands me, that must mean that there are people like me, which then in turn must mean that I am not alone. Even when the people like me are fictional characters.

Not many people have heard of Melanie La'Brooy, but I am quite possibly her biggest fan. I own all of her books, and love them dearly, but the two books which speak to me most are Love Struck and Babymoon. The main character of these two book, Isabelle Beckett may as well be renamed (future) Rebecca Brediceanu. That is how well Melanie La'Brooy gets me. Considering she has never met me, and some people who have known me all my life still haven't managed this, it is pretty amazing.

Don't really know where I was going with that aside from the fact that Melanie La'Brooy is amazing and I am not as much of a freak as I think since there are two (that's right TWO) books practically written about me.

Babymoon was actually a birthday present from my boyfriend, who tracked it down at the University of Queensland Co-Op Bookstore since I couldn't find it anywhere! Speaking of birthday presents, I spent my birthday money on clothes yet again and I'm actually concerned that I have some sort of shopping-related problem. Let me explain by example:

This doesn't even cover half of my shoes or any of my accessories. I also have a million scarves, pairs of stockings and enough lingerie for like ten people. I even recently had a clean up, so I actually had even more stuff prior to this. Nevertheless, I still think it is necessary to continue to buy clothing.

Here are some recent purchases:

L to R:
1. Camel Coloured Shorts - Miss shop, Lined T-Shirt - Glassons, Tan Boots - Wanted Shoes
2. Knit With Detachable Fur Collar- Sportsgirl, Floral Skort - Glassons, Thigh High Boots - Basque
3. Camel Coloured Cable Knit Cardigan - Blue Juice, Floral Dress - Quirky Circus, Metallic Brogues - Wanted Shoes

The cable knit jumper in the last picture is officially my favourite thing of the week. It has the most lovely pattern and it is just the right length. I'm really loving camel coloured things at the moment (obviously). Another thing I love is the lovely little ring I got for my birthday that I forgot to share last entry.

My Dad made it for me based off a $5 ring I had bought from Diva forever ago. It is quite lovely having a jeweler for a father, just saying.

And on that note I am off before this entry gets too bow-ring! (See what I did there?) (:

All Night Cinema - Just Jack

2011-04-18T18:22:00.001+10:00

It has been a while, but don't worry I am still here and I am still lame.

Only now I am reporting to you from a shiny new iMac desktop computer. I am now the proud owner of a happy little mac family.

It was a birthday present which means that yes, I am in fact now yet another year older. Which is supposed to mean I am wiser and that I have soaked up much information about the world around me and how it works. I have not.

I haven't been up to very much that is particularly exciting. I've been trying to stay afloat in the sea of journalism and somehow manage to become more aware of what is actually happening in the world. I've read the newspaper regularly, tweeted during Q&A and I've even conducted interviews. I still feel a bit like an awkward child though. Hopefully the feeling with pass with time (and not too much of it).

I've been shopping like crazy as usual and enjoying being able to wear cute winter coats and knitwear again. I've also been eating far too much sugar. Trips to Max Brenner with my friends combined with boxes upon boxes of rainbow flavoured nerds have gotten me to the point where I experience a come down when I stop eating sugar.

I'm still spending lots of time with my boyfriend and the cat. In short I am boring as ever!

I'm not entirely sure why it has taken me so long to blog. I was toying with the idea of starting a new blog that would presumably be more wordy, and then I felt bogged down with university responsibilities and I didn't end up doing very much at all. I think I'll stick around this blog for a while though, but I'm going to possibly make some changes to content, like less pretty/pointless photos and more of my stupid anecdotes about the weird shit that happens to me, maybe more book reviews (does anyone remember when I used to do those?) and possibly a few mixtapes here and there.

Do let me know what you think of this idea!!! *clickclickclick*

I will be back soon I promise. (:

How Good It Can Be - The 88

2011-03-08T21:01:00.002+11:00

Those of you who have braved the far inferior follow up to generations one and two of Skins may have noticed that Liv has a tendency to wear pastel blue nail polish. Despite a lack of interest in most parts of the show, I would watch it week after week, hoping to catch a glimpse of that nail polish. I started to notice it everywhere, on tumblr, on people's fingers at university - teasing me wherever I went.

I could be found stalking my local Priceline trying to work out which of the many blue shades from various brands was the one I wanted. The need for this nailpolish, quite frankly, consumed me - until I finally found a shade that pleased me. "Party Blue."

The lesson that can be learnt here is to set yourself achievable goals every now and then, so that you can feel like an absolute rockstar when you accomplish them - it does wonders for the self esteem. So go ahead, get obsessed with stupid simple things and make them happen. Be happy!

Dog (Feat Lisa Mitchell) - Andy Bull

2011-03-06T19:40:00.003+11:00

The past week was quite thoroughly exciting. Aside from starting university which was exciting for obvious reasons (learning, reading, writing and an abundance of new people to slowly reveal my craziness to!), I also came into possession of a beautiful pair of marble carved, egg-shaped owls.

They actually belonged to a beloved family friend, who bought them approximately 30 years ago in Italy. So they aren't just any owls, they're Italian owls! After seeing my wonder and delight at how beautiful they are (those eyes!) they were handed over to me, I am going to take very very good care of them.

Other acquisitions this week include a beautiful baggy floral blouse for 1/3 of the original price (!!), a couple of textbooks, a voice recorder (so I can pretend I have some hope of being a proper journalist) and most wonderfully a peruvian hat! The boyfriend and I have spent weeks browsing eBay for peruvian hats. He was looking for them for the purpose of keeping his head warm, while I was more focussed on recreating one of my favourite Sethummer scenes from The OC.

"I'm your snow angel. Obviously."

I am so thrilled with this hat, I can't even begin to explain it! I am also pretty thrilled with my recent baking efforts. Today I made an orange macaroon cake. It doesn't look particularly, impressive, but it made me wish I had some kind of smell capturing device so I could put the smell of it as it cooled onto my blog so everyone who visits will get to experience how lovely it was. Although I guess that'd probably just make you all hungry, which wouldn't be the most useful thing ever...

As well as the smell of orange macaroon cake, another thing I've been enjoying this week is the book Prude by Carol Platt Liebau. Basically the book is an extended feature article type deal, which goes through the various ways in which the average American teenage girl is exposed to sexual materials in her daily life.

Obviously the statistics and examples are predominantly American, but the book really speaks volumes about something I am pretty passionate about. I'm going to avoid awkward formspring messages by not further going into my point of view, but I am going to say that although I don't agree with everything the book says, I think that it raises a fair few valid points.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Monday and that you're all surrounded by people who can make you feel better by bringing you Kinder Surprises and kisses when life gets tough. ♥

Wait Up (Boots of Danger) - Tokyo Police Club

2011-03-01T09:39:00.003+11:00

I have been listening to so much Tokyo Police Club, I honestly don't listen to much else these days. Particularly today's blog title song, which I like because it is called Boots of Danger. It doesn't seem to have much to do with boots, but I like to think I'm pretty dangerous when I'm wearing my combat boots (which is around 80% of the time). So maybe the song is subconsciously about me. I mean, I like to wear socks, I walk fast, I'm moody - so why not!

I downloaded Tokyo Police Club's discography about a two weeks ago and I am completely addicted. Which isn't so unusual what with my addictive personality and all. I'm working on that though, just as I am always trying to work on making myself a better, nicer and more efficient person. I like to think of myself, and as everyone else I meet as a work in progress. It makes it easier to forgive yourself and others for their flaws and occasional unkind words.

Summer however, is officially over as of today, and even though it is an intensely unpopular opinion, I am pretty glad. I don't really cope very well with the heat. I sunburn easily and I like wearing cardigans and opaque stockings. Also ended recently, as of yesterday to be precise, is my incredibly long summer holiday. I'm trading in the stack of novels on my bedside table for textbooks and e-readings.Which is probably for the best, I did so much reading this summer it is a wonder I left my house at all!

It has only been a day, but already I am finding myself falling in love with my new university. The campus is wonderful and all the people I've met so far are too. I'm excited for the challenges that this year is no doubt going to bring, and I'm determined to make the most of everything. I will not be missing my previous educational institution at all.

My mother gave me a funny little lucky charm bracelet to bring me luck on my first day. It has a heart, a horseshoe, a wishbone and an elephant on it amongst other things. It actually proved to be quite useful since it also has a small clock on it, and I have not yet managed to find a watch I can fully commit myself and my outfit choices to. (We all know that in "Crazy Land" - i.e. my mind, purchasing a timepiece is some sort of crazy-intense life-altering decision.)

That being said, its main use yesterday was giving me something to stare at sorrowfully since my bus was late and the queue for train tickets at the train station was so long I was actually in it for ten minutes. No joke. I missed three trains standing there while the people ahead of me ineffectively mashed the buttons on the machine and feebly rummaged in wallets for change, (you would honestly think that in a line that long you would have taken out your change before reaching the machine in order to save time), and as a result had to run to my first lecture. Not exactly the best start, but surely a sign that things can only get better.

Stay Crazy! Stay Happy!

This Scene Is Dead - We Are Scientists

2011-02-19T18:38:00.003+11:00

I just wasted around fifteen minutes trying to take a photo of my nails since I painted them pastel yellow, but they look white in essentially every single photograph I took. I've really been loving pastel nail-polish lately, even though it takes about three coats to make the colour seem even, that being said it could just be my terrible manicure skills. I've also been investing in more brightly coloured accessories lately. Considering that most of my favourite clothes tend to be black, white, grey, khaki or a really pale shade of pink, I figure that adding some colour via accessories might make me seem less harsh and boring.

Actually, you can see also my ~~white~~ yellow nail in the photo below which is of my newest purchase - an amazing winter coat. Feel free to ignore the fact that I'm pulling the worst face in the world in the photo. The coat flares out slightly at the bottom, which makes it look like a dress, and means I can wear it as a sort of cape if I only do up the top button.

Considering that it is 30 degrees today, and intensely humid, I don't know that this purchase was the kindest thing I could do for myself. I am desperately longing for winter. I want to wear opaque stockings, combat boots and cardigans. I miss my anorak and I miss snuggling up with loved ones and watching movies, as opposed to sitting on opposite sides of rooms to avoid each other's body heat and slowly melting. Not to mention missing important movie plot points due to heat exhaustion!

Speaking of cardigans, I yet again indulged in some cardigans from Glassons. They honestly have the best cardigans I have yet to find. Since I fluctuate between being mentally 8 and 18 and 80 cardigans are an important stable of my wardrobe. Cardigans are perfect for those moments when I feel like a bit of a Nanna and also perfect for the rough and tumble of acting like a child. I suppose that they also work out pretty well when I choose to act my own age. Anyway, tangent aside I purchased one in a light grey today, and one in this amazing burnt umber colour. I bought them a couple sizes too big, so they are nice and baggy.

And since I'm rambling about wardrobe staples, I thought I'd include a photo of the gorgeous bag I bought myself from Sportsgirl a few weeks ago. As with all my bag purchases over the past year or so, I am justifying it by telling myself that it is a perfect bag for uni. Although in this case it probably is. I love the easy to match blue weave fabric it is made of, and the vinyl accents add a touch of vintage-esque style. Not to mention how handy the shoulder strap is going to be once I fill this baby with textbooks!

For added enjoyment, feel free to envy my very sophisticated clothing storage method, i.e. throwing everything all over my chair. I honestly have too much clothing, I'm going to have to do a massive clean-up sometime soon if I have any hope of fitting everything in my wardrobe! Looks like I have plans for the rest of the weekend then!

Try not to melt and enjoy your weekend! (:

Lost A Girl - New Young Pony Club

2011-02-17T15:20:00.001+11:00

I've had yet another productive morning. I suppose you can all get used to almost daily blog posts until uni starts, I'm pretty pumped to be back and blogging, does that make me sad? Probably.

However! Any potential pathetic behaviour on my part has to be ignored, and instead you have to be in complete awe of the fruits of my productive morning.

Wait for ittttt.......

An owl tote bag!

The owl motif is made mainly of felt but also features a few random cotton prints. How crazy are its eyes!

And since I'm crazy for little details, I'd like to point out that the straps are made of velvet ribbon!

I am so amazingly proud of myself. I actually made something cute and useful. I know I've made owls in the past but I will get to carry this around! Maybe it'll be a conversation piece - nothing wrong with striking up a friendship after a conversation about how you enjoy lame handicrafts. Right?!? I guess if I have to be known as something "lame handmade owl girl" isn't the worst possible choice.

Breakneck Speed - Tokyo Police Club

2011-02-16T17:43:00.001+11:00

Those of you who read my blog, might have noticed recently that it was gone. I think it was for just under two months that I quietly took a break from blogging. I guess I thought that if I wasn't blogging maybe I'd end up being more productive with my writing, like maybe I thought I was wasting my words here and as a consequence I wasn't able to work on the novella I had spent so much time planning.

Turns out, that without a blog, I am actually not that much more productive. I'm probably less productive, which is a scary thought. So in light of university transfer into journalism, I've decided that blogging again will be a good thing, because it will keep me writing something of my own, for recreational purposes or whatever, even if it is just boring recounts of my days and photobooth images of myself and my boyfriend. So, it is safe to assume that I am back, with all my insanity and my little collection of owls.

I spent a few hours today creating back entries to prevent a massive gap in time. There are seven new entries in total. Enjoy!

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7.

Slowdance - Matthew Dear

2011-02-15T12:07:00.028+11:00

On Valentine's Day I got up and put on my new khaki coloured dress. I did my hair, and I tried to make myself look like I could reasonably pass as a heroine in a rom-com.

Not sure if I succeeded, but my boyfriend certainly succeeded at dressing for the male romantic lead. When I opened the door he was wearing a lovely collared shirt and holding a beautiful bunch of flowers and my amazing pink flatdog!

Flatdog is seriously the best stuffed animal ever! He is so big, and soft and he makes a lovely pillow, laptop desk and he is so cuddly. To add to my day, as we were leaving to go out, I found my copy of Frankie Magazine in the letterbox, happy valentine's day indeed!

Obviously though, the best thing about valentine's day was not the long stem roses, or the ducks that ate out of our hands during our picnic at the park, or even Ashton Kutcher in No Strings Attached, but in fact my boyfriend. I don't mean to be sappy, but I am honestly so so lucky to be in such a wonderful relationship.

I love you.

No Sex For Ben - The Rapture

2011-02-10T20:54:00.001+11:00

I've had a creative week! On Monday I spent my day with two of my loveliest friends, and we made spinach and feta muffins.

They tasted a lot better than they look, and obviously they were made with the added secret ingredient of crazy!

Then today, I decided to break out the sewing machine and make myself a tote bag out of some random fabrics I had lying around. I was inspired by this particular design on Etsy. Here is the finished product:

The photo lighting is a bit rubbish, as was my sewing, but now that I've got a prototype, I intend to get myself to a fabric store to buy some fabric especially for a uni tote bag. Excited!

Neighbourhood #3 (Power Out) - Arcade Fire

2011-02-06T11:44:00.025+11:00

I've been busy lately, filling my time with enrolment and withdrawals and braids and the purchase of frivolous things. Not to mention the ridiculous Sydney heat. There is a real issue when it is still like 6 million degrees (maybe like, 40) at night, someone needs to inform the weather that it only need be hot during the day, and even then - it is being a bit of an overachiever.

How wonderful is this beautiful bottle green owl!?! Stay happy. (:

Rolling In The Deep - Adele

2011-01-20T21:11:00.000+11:00

You have received the following offer in the Main Round for study in 2011:

Bachelor of Arts in Communication (Journalism) Bachelor of Laws - full time at University of Technology, Sydney, City campus!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

Carry The Weight (I Wanted You) - Kate Tucker

2011-01-18T11:19:00.036+11:00

Went to the Aquarium with my boyfriend today to see the Lego exhibition!

I wore this snazzy little outfit right here:

I'm still not really sure how I feel about white shoes. A part of me is certain that shoes are not meant to be white, while another part of me feels oh so cool and laid back when I wear them. Guess I'll have to wear them more before I can make a decision.

Lately, I've been feeling like I'm a time warp or something, in addition to having dug up my old iPod which hasn't been updated in like 2 years or so, the introduction of the new digital channel 11 has reintroduced me to Sabrina the Teenage Witch. I basically grew up on this show, so getting to watch it everyday is pretty much the best thing ever!!

The show is just amazing to me. The premise is so simple and under-explained and yet you can’t bring yourself to question it because it is so cute and everyone seems so happy. The meanies on the witches council are happy, the bully is happy, the tragic science teacher is (almost) happy - hell, even I’m happy when I watch it, and we all know I’m usually a miserable little shit. (;

Anyway, if you'll excuse me I’m off to dance around my house madly to songs I loved dearly in years 10 & 11!

Speeding Cars - Imogen Heap

2011-01-02T11:14:00.001+11:00

Welcome to a new year! I am determined to make 2011 my year! Regardless of what happens with my impending university transfer, I am going to make sure that this year is brilliant academically, and I'm going to make more of an effort to stay in contact with my friends amid the demands of university and life in general. Actually, if I'm honest, I hope to do many things this year, so many that I've been making myself a silly little manifesto, a guide by which I should live my life in order to maximise my happiness.

Here's an excerpt:

Accept that you cannot control everything and everyone.

People are unpredictable. You have control freak tendencies. This is not a good mix. What you need to realise, is that the best thing about people (and life in general) is their ability to surprise you. You might think you’ve got everything all worked out, but often in life you’ll find that when you relinquish control to someone/something else, life can take an unexpectedly pleasant turn. The sooner you learn that you cannot control everything that happens to you, the sooner you’ll be closer to being a well adjusted human being.

My main goal for 2011 though, is to always remember that life is beautiful provided you have the right mindset, and you know where to look.

I need to have more faith in people, and I need to have more faith in myself.

I had a lovely new years eve, with my lovely boyfriend. Wearing a lovely pair of pink tailored shorts and spotty blouse! Andddd my lace up Tony Bianco wedges!

This is our year - don't any of you forget it!

Christmas Is Going To The Dogs - Eels

2010-12-27T10:46:00.022+11:00

Christmas has blessed me with many, many gifts!

And that's only the half of it! Most importantly (as far as blogging is concerned) my adorable boyfriend (shown above in all his glory) bought me a much lusted after remote for my camera, which means I can now bombard my blog with various full length self portraits. Try not to look so damn excited followers! :p

Maybe This Christmas - Ron Sexsmith

2010-12-25T14:18:00.003+11:00

Merry Christmas!!!

I hope you're all positively chuffed with your gifts, feeling incredibly fat from all the yummy food, and most importantly that you're all enjoying the day with those you love. (: xx

U Should Know Better (Feat. Snoop Dogg) - Robyn

2010-12-20T20:15:00.001+11:00

Had a lovely day taking photos of my beautiful friends. There will be no faux-philosophical rant today, instead just some photos and happy.

In other news, look at the amazing Christmas card I received today! I could only dream of being as gorgeous as this lovely drawing of me!

Been listening to a lot of Robyn lately and just generally feeling kick ass. Hope everyone is feeling just as awesome! (:

Love Is Hard - James Morrison

2010-12-14T19:23:00.002+11:00

Love is hard, if it was easy,
it wouldn't mean nothing.

My patience, kindness and strength have really been tested lately. I've been doing my best to be good and brave and strong. Luckily there are things in life which make it infinitely easy to love them.

For example:

Chocolate:

Plastic horses:

And this lovely lady right here:

Oh No! - Dear and the Headlights

2010-12-11T14:55:00.001+11:00

I have stolen an old beaded cardigan from my mother's wardrobe. I am pretty fond of it. It is so incredibly hot today that I fear that my skin is going to melt off (hopefully it does so evenly) - and yet, I cannot bring myself to take it off.

It is funny the way people walk in and out of our lives. Or maybe not funny, I don't know. I think the humour lies in the different ways they can change us. Like maybe the point of any friendship or relationship is that we get involved with people who can better us, or who we can better, and then once that relationship has been exhausted you drift apart. Maybe the only lasting thing we can gain from relationships of any sort are the changes they cause, the new facets of our personalities which we uncover. Yeah, none of that was funny at all.

"if you're just yourself you'll never lose."

The Specialist - Interpol

2010-12-08T10:29:00.002+11:00

In case my incessant twittering hasn't made it obvious, yes I did survive my wisdom tooth surgery. Hurrah! Although I think I would have been a little hard pressed to die from such simple surgery.

My cheeks have finally gone down to normal size now, but I still have a hideous bruise on my chin.

The good news is, that being somewhat facially disfigured has given me a chance to work on my new project. It isn't an exciting or cute project like the felt owls were, so it isn't going to lead to much blog-related joy, but I have done lots of planning and I now have a quarter-filled squared moleskine cashier (with weird text on the front) and my notice board is covered in a giant planning grid.

Additionally I have a new favourite owl, my mum got him for me from the hospital gift store and I named him Debbie after the pretty nurse who helped me onto the operating table. Yep. Him.

I promise to get out of my house and take more interesting photographs soon. I'm also going to force the boyfriend to take photos of me for some outfit posts since I haven't done any proper ones in a while. I noticed on my dashboard that I've got a pretty decent amount of followers now and I'd really like to thank you guys for reading my ramblings! Hope everyone has a lovely week! ♥

The Takers - Barcelona

2010-11-28T16:45:00.002+11:00

You would think that being on holidays would give me more opportunities for blogging. But if anything it has made me more lazy. That isn't to say that I haven't been occupied. I most certainly have! I've been indulging myself with chocolate, kisses, moleskines, clothing, rings, fine photography and owls. Here it is in a photographic nutshell:

The Annie Leibovitz exhibition currently showing at the Museum of Contemporary Art is amazing! Especially when viewed in good company.

Practice sketches for the card I made my boyfriend for his 20th Birthday on Friday. I stupidly didn't take any photos of the actual thing. We went to the powerhouse museum and I baked him a dark chocolate mud cake.

These are the first 2 out of 6 Scott Pilgrim graphic novels. They belong to my boyfriend and I am slowly going through them. I seem to struggle with books that don't have that many words. Go figure.

And finally, the thing I am most excited/proud of. Over the span of around 24 hours I set to work with lots of scrap fabric and a pattern I got from My Owl Barn and modified slightly. I might have gotten a little carried away but the finished product makes me smile.

(clicky to view large)

In case my handiwork is utterly rubbish, yes they are sweet little plush owls. And yes they were all hand-stitched by me (with a bit of help on the brown one from one of my lovely friends during a bitching session)! I am totally asking for a sewing machine for Christmas so I can branch out to making slightly more useful things.

Have a wonderful week. I'm going in for wisdom tooth surgery this week, so who knows when I may have the strength to blog again. Hello melodrama. Hope you're all well!

I'll Never Fall In Love Again - Splitsville

2010-11-16T20:09:00.003+11:00

Just a quick entry to inform you of my freedom. Yaay! Freedom! Tonight I am going to watch the social network with the boyfriend which I have been anticipating for ages. Here is my customary freedom self portrait. Hurrahhh!

All week I have been wearing my good luck horseshoe and horse necklace!

Tonight I will be taking my mother's bag which I stole! It is amazing!

And my nails are mint green now. That is all!

I hope you all have a lovely night! I know I shall! ♥

ETA: We're crazy, but awesome. And I think this is a much better indicator of freedom.

Goodbye - Best Coast

2010-11-02T16:21:00.002+11:00

I am attempting to get into exam mode now, so if you don't hear from me before the 16th of November never fear, I have not died.

Also, it is a bit delayed, but here’s a Hallowe’en photo of myself and the boyfriend. I look like a bit of a sped (what exactly am I doing with my tongue?) But my boyfriend is adorable and made a very dreamy Edward Cullen, even though it was a bit concerning how much fun he had covering his face and chest in glitter.

Good luck everyone for exams and for life in general. (:

Overweight But Over You - The Vaselines

2010-10-29T10:04:00.002+11:00

My room is my sanctuary. There are very few people I allow in there, and the majority of things that make me happy end up in there. All my junk ends up in my study, which looks like a trainwreck, just to make sure that my room looks are pretty as possible. If you'll remember correctly my room is bright pink and full of teacups. Recently I bought a pair of owl bookends, and they prompted me to rearrange everything again. Since I'm feeling pleased with myself, and it is actually pretty cute I think you should all just shut up and enjoy some pictures. (Sorry, feeling a little bit aggressive - I am fulllll of coffeeeee!)

I like the last picture best.

Wraith Pinned to the Mist (And Other Games) - Of Montreal

2010-10-28T20:38:00.001+11:00

Yep, hi this is the world's crappiest blogger right here. If it is any consolation, I am also the world's crappiest friend, student and girlfriend. Honestly, this week I am kind of an amalgamation of the worst kinds of crap. (Only this week? Har har har.)

To make myself feel ~~fatter~~ better I have been eating Oreos for breakfast. These ingenious mini packs contain only two Oreos each and hence limit the chances of me spending my whole morning eating my way through a box before setting off to university. Speaking of which, tomorrow is my last day at uni (aside from exams) for the year. I should probably feel nostalgic because if I happen to get my transfer I'll never be a student there again. I don't actually feel that way though. Actually, I kind of just feel like I want more Oreos...

I have also been taking to wearing my mother's old rings. My dad made these for her when she was young (he is a jeweller etc) and they're too small for her but fit me perfectly, and have the added benefit of being gold which means that they don't leave those annoying green marks that my fingers are always subjected to during summer.

Speaking of jewellery, I picked this camera necklace up at yet another fair a few weekends ago. It is on a super long chain and I love it. The fair was on this horrible windy day so I wasn't there for very long but this camera makes it worth the shivering and dirt in my eyes.

There are still some photos left. Provided my Legal History class finishes early tomorrow I will hopefully post again tomorrow. Sorry to everyone who reads this to procrastinate etc. I know I'm crap but I will be better I swear! ♥

Violet Eyes - My Gold Mask

2010-10-24T15:49:00.002+11:00

Being the boring person that I am, I went and visited the bargain bookshop again and again and again this week. There's something about books and words that make me crazy with excitement. Anyway, I ended up buying lots of books again, but the most exciting one was this book here:

I saw this book a while ago at the Kinokuniya bookshop in TGV but I was feeling pretty broke so I just had a quiet flick through it. When I saw it at the bargain price I had no choice but to buy it.Basically, a woman called Beth Sometimes spent an entire year sending postcards. One everyday. They ended up published in this book under various categories and they are amazing.

Reading it just gave me this sudden urge to create. I didn't know what to create, but I knew I had to do something creative. So ignoring my bank balance and assignments I went and stocked up on a bunch of moleskine cashiers, both the small brown ones with plain sheets and the A4 black ones with grid paper. Of course I didn't get much further than buying the damn things. I ended up mailing one to a good friend and sticking random crap on the front of another one.

This one went to my friend in the mail:

And this one is just sitting on my desk staring at me:

Before anyone says anything, yes my boyfriend has already alerted me that the phrase on the cover of it is not scientifically correct. In response I pulled an extremely grotesque face at him (even more grotesque than my normal face believe it or not) and then I proceeded to attempt to bite his upper arm. So unless you want a similar fate, there is no need to remind me. It is just a quote I like okay?

And of course, no moleskine adventure is complete without coloured pens. These Staedtler Triplus Fineliners have always been my favourite coloured pens ever, and I get the happiest feeling whenever I buy new pack.

Nts: Do not lend these to your friends because they will end up pressing too hard when using them and ruining the tips. This happened with my brand new Superfine Artline pen the day I bought it. I was not pleased.

Anyway, this entry has been far too wordy and uninteresting for its own good. Also, since the pictures for it were taken over the space of a week and a bit my nail colour changes from picture to picture. Expect more blog entries soon to use up all my photos, and I promise the next ones will be more interesting. I am off to paint my nails brown now. Exciting.

Pumped Up Kicks - Foster The People

2010-10-22T10:08:00.002+11:00

Like every other university student, exams are looming for me and hence I am currently daydreaming about my 3 month long holiday after said exams. You would think that since I have been in some form of schooling for almost 13 years now, that I would have learnt that this isn't healthy. This week I have been writing essays for the compulsory units my catholic university makes me do (even though I probably couldn't care less about one of said units) but I've been dreaming up holiday plans and painting my nails bright colours too.

I have many pictures and things to blog about, but I've been putting it off because of work and just a lack of patience to sit down and just BLOG. Spending my work time writing essays makes me want to spend my free time running around or something. Most likely something that involves less cardiovascular effort though. I promise to blog properly this weekend, and write up a whole bunch of posts and post them gradually so that everyone else who is procrastinating has something to read and some (hopefully) pretty pictures to look at. (I also kind of just want to get that stupid photobooth photo of me off the top of my blog lalalala.)

Hope you're all feeling less crazy and stressed than I am! (:

Under the Sheets (Feat. Chiddy Bang) - Ellie Goulding

2010-10-12T18:26:00.002+11:00

Hi there!

I've been hiding in a textbook again. Resurfacing occasionally to let my boyfriend kiss my forehead on trains so old ladies can smile at us (most heart-warming thing ever, mainly because I am such a corny romantic idiot). I also visit book stores and paint my nails coral, (because I'm going through a stage where I don't bite them again - yay). Ridiculous stuff really.

When I get upset, which is frequently because I'm a highly-strung, emotional weirdo, I turn to comfort things. For example the futureme.org archive. I have never actually used future me, but I love reading the letters because they're about people and I like people and yeah. I'm a nerd.

Today I bought my very own copy of the future me book. As well as the Keep Calm and Carry On book. The best part? Both books cost me $10.90 all up. Can I just say, that if things don't work out with the boyfriend, I am totally marrying (or at least passionately kissing) whoever thought of bargain book stores (unless they're totally gruesome or like 400 years old or something).

Also, here is a lovely rose, that totally smells like heaven by the way, that someone gave my mother at work, which she then passed on to me because of my weird fixation with flowers.

Although, looking at how beautiful that is, I'm pretty sure my fixation is justified. Hope everyone's week is being just as lovely as that rose. And that you too have cute inspirational quotes and soft floral fragrances to keep you happy. ♥

Opposite of Adults - Chiddy Bang

2010-10-01T21:01:00.001+10:00

Had a really lovely day today in the park with my boyfriend. I have this weird obsession with ducks, mainly because my favourite childhood stuffed animal is a duck, and so I wanted to go feed the ducks, hoping that since it is springtime there would be many cute baby ducks. I was not disappointed! (Although ducks are bloody difficult to photograph!)

We ate almost a whole litre of cookies and cream ice-cream in the park and took corny scenery photos. I could use this opportunity to babble on about how much I love my boyfriend and how much fun we have together, but that isn't interesting for anyone but him and he's already well aware.

Hope that everyone who takes the time to read my blog feels as happy as I did today. (:

No One's Gonna Love You (Paul Epworth Mix) - Cee-Lo Green

2010-09-28T19:31:00.001+10:00

I spent my afternoon catching up with an old friend. We've had a really complicated friendship in the past where things got messed up for stupid reasons, and we didn't talk to each other for the longest time. Recently we made up and I am pretty much overjoyed to have her back in my life.

We had a lovely, crazy few hours together today. We made the most of the lovely weather and went to the park to abuse the children's play equipment. We watched a bee walk around in circles on the ground and talked about the silly men we know. We took around a million photos.

Check out this absolutely AMAZING scarf she finished knitting the other week! It is absolutely massive and soft and warm and even though it was like a billion degrees today I couldn't resist wrapping my silly little self in it!

Not only is she talented (best scarf ever!) and beautiful (see further evidence of this below), but she also has the most amazing room!

Unfortunately there are conditions of entry.

These rules are strictly enforced.

Now off you all go! Have some fun in the sunshine of your own, preferably with cool people you like. Also, follow my friend's tumblr. ♥

Siamese Cities - Metric

2010-09-25T10:09:00.001+10:00

soulmatesandwashingmachines blogger being boring!
from Rebecca Julie on Vimeo.

I'm baaaack! The video above explains what I've been up to, as well as why there is a video up there! It is all a bit exciting really (not). Anyway, as promised, have some photos!

From the Spring Fair:

20 cent owls:

Run down on my recent purchases:

1. shimmery brown stone bracelet, you can't tell from the photo but its made from that weird type of stone that looks like its got glitter inside it. 2. I don't really know the proper names for these, but anyone exposed to Catholic schooling of any type would probably be aware of them, its a religious wooden braclet. $1 from the fair! 3. plastic bubble flower broach, larger image of it above. & Floral cameo broach below it (which I forgot to give a number). 4. Bracelets from Lovisa. 5. Chariot broach (my favourite). 6. Floral heart bracelets from Dotti. 7. Owl broach! 8. Small bow broach with dangly pearl. 9. Enamel duck broach. 10. Cord and bead bracelets from Sportsgirl. 11. Green cord and metal bracelet from Bardot.

(watch the video! and don't forget to tell me what you think!)

God Only Knows (Beach Boys Cover) - PDF Format

2010-09-09T16:53:00.002+10:00

The title track for this post this amazing! You can listen to/ download it from this lovely website here. I had it on repeat pretty much all morning, while I baked chocolate chip cookies. I woke up with the urge to bake, and so I had cookies for a really late breakfast. The first batch came out giant because I really underestimated how much they would grow.

Lucky I have a ~~human garbage disposal~~ lovely boyfriend who could eat the ugly over-sized cookies for me. Needless to say, I was very pleased with my breakfast, and with my gorgeous boyfriend. I am full of happy thoughts, and I think that is what blogs should be for. Now go download that song. (:

Garbage Truck - Sex Bom-omb

2010-09-05T18:47:00.001+10:00

Saw Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World yesterday and totally loved it! I liked the storyline, and the cute comic book effects. I love the idea of life being a video game.

Ohh. Myy. Godd. Can I do the teenager level over again? It'd be cool to bring my current knowledge back to that hell... Actually, forget that, once was enough. And I highly doubt there are any cheats.

The only things really going on in my life are university work and a search for bracelets. I don't seem to have any bracelets that I really like, with the exception of my pearl bracelet. So I have been spending any spare moment in any store that looks like it might sell jewellery, just looking for something simple and lovely that will look pretty good with most of my clothing. So far, I've only found these:

But I still need some more delicate bracelets, I don't have the ability to put up with bigger, more elaborate bracelets for long. I am a chronic fiddler and I am most likely going to end up taking the offending bracelet off and putting it in my handbag, hence negating its existence, or just end up breaking it. I'm very bad at being a girl and wearing accessories and whatnot. Ultimately, I think I'm just going to end up making my own bracelets, which means I'm going to haunt Lincraft, Spotlight and those racks of dodgy beads in two dollar stores. Yaay!

Despite my lack of success in finding bracelets I have found an amazing ring!

(And this picture right above is dedicated to the person who informed me on formspring that I am too ugly to post pictures of myself on my blog. I'm not wearing any make-up in that picture either, so I'm extra "ugly." Enjoy!)

It is obviously the golden one with the turquoise enamel on it. I really like it, I was worried it'd look weird on my scrawny fingers since it is so big, but I honestly don't care if it does, because I love it so much.

Was looking through random collections of old things hidden in the backs of cupboards in my house today to avoid learning management theory, and found this lovely hand painted ceramic house. Hope everyone had a lovely weekend. (:

Suddenly - Angry Anderson

2010-08-31T10:38:00.001+10:00

I was really pleased with myself yesterday for actually accessorizing an outfit. Usually the idea of wearing a long necklace strikes terror in my heart, because of the horrific tendency they have to bounce off my stomach as I walk. I faced my fear though, and this was the outfit which ensued:

It was probably the only good thing about yesterday. Isn't that truly depressing. I really like my peach cardigan, it makes me feel girly and delicate and less like a spastic trollop than I usually do.

How I Got Over - The Roots

2010-08-28T19:38:00.001+10:00

The main problem with me is that the more I get, the more I want. I struggle to be content with what I've been given, and instead waste my time looking at my 98% full life, and complaining that I lack that extra 2%. I should really just be happy about the 98% that I've got, and maybe start living my life instead of examining it.

These pictures made me happy. I hope you're all happy.

Room Full of People in Your Head - Cloud Cult

2010-08-20T10:23:00.001+10:00

Hello!

I am back to tell you about my boring adventures. Is that an oxymoron? I do not know!

Anyway, this post is basically coming a week late, since the things I'm going to blog about happened last Friday and last weekend. I'm a shit blogger blah blah blah. To make up for it I have pictures! (And rambling... sorry!)

Last Friday I did what I had been meaning to do for a while, and bought another moleskine.

My moleskine that I usually post pictures of is a pocket moleskine with plain pages, and it is quite morbidly obese these days because of all the things I have stuck in it. Which makes it sort of difficult to write in whenever i do attempt to do so. I had recently been considering trying to start up writing in a diary again, I made some sad attempts to start writing in my old abandoned diary again, but it didn't really stick.

I realised that the problem is the actual writing part. It seems that I am incapable of writing about my feelings any more in any certain terms, so I decided that my best option would be to buy a large sketchbook moleskine, and attempt to draw my damn feelings instead.

TA DA!

The on the Saturday I went to the George Street Markets with my best friend and spent far too much money. We ate scones by the harbour and it was just generally lovely. Here are the few things that I bought:

A lovely little cat broach which looks stunningly like my very own fat cat. It is the lightweight alternative to taking my cat everywhere I go, and it bites a lot less.

My ring collection is still expanding. And I've got my eye on a few more. I have like 6 million times as many rings as I have fingers! I especially love the bird ring, it is so realistic, like having a miniature bird perched on my hand!

And another owl for my collection. This was seriously the only interesting thing I did all week. I really am not the kind of person who should keep a blog.

The rest of the week has been spent freaking out over an essay and listening to my boyfriend sing that annoying billionaire song. Yep.

Careful - Paramore

2010-08-12T16:02:00.001+10:00

Time for a book post!

I haven't done this in ages I know, but I haven't really read any books that I have fallen in love with for a while now. Luckily I just finished one the other day which was amazing so I can now bore the two or so people who read this blog with it. Yaay!

Monster Love by Carol Topolski is about a couple who are so deeply in love that they cannot bear to let anything get between them. Not even their own child. It is a little gruesome, but it uses clever story telling, in that each "chapter" is just a recollection of events by either the couple themselves or by someone who knew them or was somehow implicated in what they did to their daughter.

I think the best part was the different voices of the characters, and the way they bled together to fill in all the details of the story. Each character seemed sufficiently different despite recollecting the same events, which I feel is the mark of a good writer. Good stories all lie in good characterisation, since there really is only so much that can be done with plot.

I particularly liked how the couple themselves always shared their chapters, and how it was sometimes difficult to figure out who was saying what. It was more than a little creepy, but I think it is a great concept to consider that it is actually potentially bad thing to find your soulmate. Better stick to washing machines guys.

An amazing and intelligent read, although it should be kept in mind that I'm into the slightly gruesome and it takes a lot to shock me, so it might not be the kind of book that everyone enjoys.

Talk About - Dear and The Headlights

2010-08-10T19:55:00.001+10:00

I've heard the clichés about how university (or college if you're American or whatever) is supposed to be the time in your life when you discover who you are as a person. I always thought that was total bullshit, because:

I know exactly who I am thanksverymuch.
University students seem to alternate between getting wasted and last minute cramming so they can get 51% on exams.

But lately, it is like, the more I think about it, I start to realise that in fact

And what freaks me out even more, is this realisation that it is okay, and that's how everyone is supposed to be at this age. Riiight.

So what exactly does one do with the information that they have no clue what kind of person they really are? I mean, teenagers, especially teenage girls, are in annoying in that they can go from being a complete sweetheart to a raging bitch in 0.5 seconds. We can think we really care about something, but then suddenly decide that really it meant nothing. How do you know which one is real?

Sometimes when things get hard, I wish I could just get up and revert to being my true self. Or what I think is my true self. But then once I get into the motions of the person I thought I was, I realise that isn't even the case at all. So what does that make me? Am I the person I thought I was deep down, or is the person I think I am deep down just an illusion built to distract me from the person I really am?

Can you tell that I'm really confused?

These are the things I know about myself for sure:

I am female (woo!)
I am way too hard on myself about my appearance
I feel stronger than I actually am when I wear my combat boots

When I really care about a person, I always care about them, even when they do horrible things to me - I am loyal to the point of stupidity
I often have to literally bite my tongue to stop myself from interrupting someone when they're talking - I usually know what people are about to say
Flowers make me happy

It takes a lot to shock me
I seek comfort in the familiar - I always read the same books and watch the same movies when I'm upset
I am obsessive and I have an addictive personality

Hero - Regina Spektor

2010-08-08T15:59:00.001+10:00

As is becoming a habit, here is a review of my week. There really are only two things of note since I spend most of my time pretending to study/actually studying. Since I go to a private university I'm being forced through the liberal arts method of teaching so I get to learn about philosophy and theology this semester. I'm actually kind of enjoying philosophy, but don't tell anyone.What am I am not enjoying is how much of my time they seem to eat up.

I caught the flu from my boyfriend and then proceeded to give him the flu again once he was better. Pretty impressive germ sharing right there. Also impressive is my boyfriend's ability to pull the same face in every photo.

Bought some lovely rings from my new favourite jewellery store Lovisa. It is the cutest store ever, they wrap your purchases in pink tissue paper and put them inside lovely little beige bags with care instructions. Go there and spend your money, do it now!

I'd been lusting after the deer ring (above) for a while, but the other three (below) were spur of the moment because the lighting in that store makes everything so shiny! I am obviously a total sucker for shiny things. Plus I've really gotten into wearing lots of rings lately, it really improves on the appearance of hands doesn't it? Hands are ugly things.

Sorry I don't have anything more fascinating to share, unfortunately I am incredibly boring. But then again, no one is really forcing you to read this.

Cold Shoulder (Basement Jaxx Classic Remix) - Adele

2010-08-01T17:05:00.003+10:00

I'm back at university now so I'm more than a little busy again,

but here is how I spent my free time this week:

Taking strange photos through a textured piece of clear plastic.

Studying with my small collection of owls.

Watching Elvis and Annabelle, hence feeding my massive girl-crush on Blake Lively.

Making pancakes and covering them with copious amounts of honey.

Pinning things all over my corkboard.

Dressing up with shiny recent purchases and feeling like a princess.

Digging up some of my old rings and feeling quite joyful
watching my ring collection expand without spending a cent.

Staring at the blue sky through my window and pretending that
the clouds are made of fairy floss.

I also saw Inception, which was indeed every bit as amazing as
anticipated, although admittedly I may have had my eyes
pretty much glued to Joseph Gordon-Levitt a lot of the time,
so I probably missed like 5387583 important plot points.

You Make My Dreams Come True - Hall and Oates

2010-07-22T19:53:00.001+10:00

I got bored and my boyfriend is on holidays at the moment, so since I had no one to harass, here is a lovely mix of songs (which I had on repeat like, all day today) for all my readers to enjoy. All four of you or whatever. Woo! Each song name links to youtube, because we all know that actually hearing things is waaay more fun than reading song titles. And now I present to you:

songs for lonely, wistful days

when your boyfriend is far away

(or you know, just nice songs)

Track 1: Us - Regina Spektor
Track 2: Swimmers - Broken Social Scene
Track 3: Cemetery Weather - Isles and Glaciers
Track 4: Sweet Darlin' - She & Him
Track 5: Changes - Stars
Track 6: Fuck and Run - Liz Phair
Track 7: June on the West Coast - Bright Eyes
Track 8: Guns and Horses - Ellie Goulding
Track 9: What a Drag - Bearhands
Track 10: Thump - Bertie Blackman
Track 11: Skinny Love - Bon Iver
Track 12: Naive Orleans - Anberlin
Track 13: One Last Chance - James Morrison
Track 14: My Number - Tegan and Sara
Track 15: Soon We'll Be Found - Sia
Track 16: You Make My Dreams Come True - Hall and Oates

Perfect Company - A Cursive Memory

2010-07-19T20:45:00.001+10:00

I'm bored, I'm sleepy and I am dreading going back to university next week. I'm annoyed at myself, which is nothing new. I don't know what I really want, which angers me, because it is usually so clear-cut. I am usually exquisitely good at knowing exactly how I want things to turn out, so agonising over my options is driving me crazy. All I really know is that I want to be with you all the time, which is probably bad, even though it feels good. I keep having these weird dreams, of what my life would have been like, had we never crossed paths. It makes me scared, isn't it scary how easily you can lose everything in a second? I am kind of sick of everything, I get bored too easily, I want to change, but how do you do that with a room full of trinkets and a closet full of clothes and people's never-ending expectations all working against you?

We Don't Want Your Body - Stars

2010-07-17T14:34:00.001+10:00

Sleep now and dream of who you'll be, when you finally become someone.

I am a strong believer that we are very much impacted by our environment on a subconscious level. Whether that be our emotional environment, which is influenced by the emotions of those around us, or our physical environment which is based on the various objects we surround ourselves with. I'm not exactly the most positive person to begin with, so I put a lot of emphasis on the way I decorate my room, which I try to treat as my sanctuary. Not exactly a mood-fixer, but being surrounded by pretty things never hurt anyone.

I recently got a new tallboy put into my room because I didn't have enough space for all my clothes, and I took my really old computer out of my room also. Which meant an opportunity for shifting around all my various trinkets. So now I welcome you, to my happy place.

I know it isn't much, but I like it. (:

Courage, Robert - Meg & Dia

2010-07-11T16:27:00.003+10:00

I've been spending my time wearing my new canvas coat from Glassons (pictured below) over cardigans and collared shirts, and running to bus stops in the morning while everyone else sleeps.

All to visit my poor boyfriend, who is not only stuck with the discomfort most would associate with having to date me, but also with the annoying inability to walk around very much since he's ruptured some ligaments in his ankle.

He's getting better though, thank you for asking. But, he is also the reason why I haven't blogged in so long. Forgive me, but I'd rather spend my time at his house keeping him company (or even going to soccer games with him), than sitting with my laptop at home wherever possible.

In between my visits to his house to keep him company and feed him cheese and bacon rolls, I have managed to go on a few random adventures and nab a few cute things to blog about. Hurrah! So what were these adventures?

Well firstly I baked! Which really goes without saying these days doesn't it?

Coconut Macaroons (desiccated coconut is officially delicious and my favourite thing ever!)

Chocolate Vanilla twists for my boyfriend (as opposed to the mocha vanilla kind - actually surprisingly the recipe was better with hot chocolate instead of coffee, imagine that!)

I also successfully went thrifting, seriously, my first ever successful thrift store experience. I am always so jealous of my cool friends and their ability to find nice blouses and cute long jumpers in vinnies while all I find are obnoxious fluoro things with holes in them. However! I have since found success, basically though the following:

A pair of lovely pink swans that you can store things in, I have not yet found something appropriate to put inside, but I endeavour to do so.

Simple belt which I nabbed for only $1 which looks really brilliant with my favourite skirts and isn't freakishly large. I also kinda like the buckle detail, even though it is sort of odd and the flash in the above photo has made the gold colour seem even more garish than it actually is.

Red Striped Shirt. Okay, so I'll admit, it kind of looks like a square when it is hung up, but I promise that when put on this shirt looks much better, it has shoulder pads and looks lovely tucked in.

Grey spotted blouse, which still had tags on it and seems to hail from Japan. It is a little big, but I couldn't resist the collar, which looks adorable when poking out from under a jumper or cardigan!

Big handmade Italian jumper. I love the pattern and the colours. And it is very warm and soft!

Giant off-white jumper with the cutest little flower detailing. It was love at first sight.

And, of course, there were non-thrifted purchases, which were basically these two lovely dresses, which only cost $10 each. Bargain much?

I love the sparrow that is wearing a top hat and a bow. How adorable is that?!??

Finally, I bought the best book ever. I say this because I have been visiting it at Borders for maybe a year now. Every time I am there I always look at it and giggle, so I finally decided to buy the damn thing!

Happy Kitty Bunny Pony (A Saccharine Mouthful of Super Cute) by Charles S. Anderson Design Co. with text by Michael J. Nelson is the perfect combination of adorable, colourful and totally sarcastic. Here are a few pages from it that especially made me giggle:

Text reads:

Most people have played with toy horses. Hopefully during childhood and probably because toy horses make such versatile playthings. You can make them walk, trot, canter, gallop. You can pick them up, maybe set them back down… well, that’s about it. But it’s fun!

Text reads:

CatFact: A single cat can be responsible for the deaths of more than 100 birds and small animals every year. (But not this cat, of course. His fused back end and peglike front leg make it difficult to move stealthily. And not the cat on the opposite page, either. His oversized head makes him enormously top-heavy. The fat duck in the orange tree has nothing to worry about.)

So that's my week in a nutshell. Sorry about the super long post and the millions of boring pictures, that's just what happens whenever I put off blogging. (Just think, I even left some of it out!) I'll try and be a good, short and consistent blogger in the future.

Rhinestone Eyes - Gorillaz

2010-07-01T14:18:00.001+10:00

I got bored and baked. Here are the results:

(click to view large and read/steal recipe if you wish)

Recipe is from The Australia Women's Weekly Macaroons and Biscuits cookbook I bought recently.

I made the biscuits short and fat and round instead of long thin twists because they're easier to eat that way. I need to modify the recipe so that it doesn't have coffee in it (I'm thinking of just adding a bit of extra cocoa and adding water to the cocoa), since my boyfriend hates coffee and I want to make him a batch. He's currently totally immobilised because of a soccer injury, so I'm going to make him ~~nice and fat~~ happy by baking him different biscuits from this book and various other books that my mother has kindly bought me recently.

Right As Rain - Adele

2010-06-25T11:18:00.001+10:00

My search for a thrifted copy of the catcher in the rye continues. My various thrift store experiences have only ever resulted in a brown floral blazer for $10 ages ago and this cute little heart-shaped box I bought for $1.50 the other day:

I have friends who swear by thrifting, but it's never really worked for me. So I'm pretty pleased with my box. The inside is a lovely blue velvet. (: My brain is currently going off on tangents of the Nirvana song Heart-Shaped Box. How exciting. Well actually, I realize that I'm not really exciting, I'm just killing time waiting for my boyfriend to come over for cuddles and 30 Rock.

nts: i should use these moments to do something productive like write letters to my penpal rather than blogging incessantly for an audience of ~~no one~~ like, two people!

Just to make this bland post a bit more interesting, I thought I'd share a photo of something that makes me really happy. Okay, a few things that make me really happy. A lot of things that make me really happy, all together in one place. Ready?

(click to view large)

Yes, shoes! How original! A girl who likes shoes? That hardly ever happens! Anyway, these are only a fraction of my shoe collection but they are my favourites. My absolute favourites are (obviously) my new combat boots, my navy keds with the floral wedges, my plain black lace ups (made of the softest leather you'll ever encounter), my black canvas wittner lace up heels (actually more comfortable than flats) and my keds owl flats and and... okay I love them all. I need to find a good pair of thigh high boots that I can wear with skirts in casual situations without looking like a hooker. I'm not sure if that is actually possible, but if it is, you'd better believe I'll do it!

Have some moleskine pages:

I love my moleskine, however, it has gotten so so fat with all the crap I've stuck in it. It's really nice/therapeutic to get back into scrapbooking particularly in such a micro form, since I can take my moleskine everywhere I go.

Love The Way You Lie (ft. Rihanna) - Eminem

2010-06-24T18:27:00.004+10:00

Those of you who've read my blog for a long time, or who know me well outside of the blogosphere, would know that I'm a very sensitive person. Things hit me hard. When it rains it pours. Blah blah blahhh.

I'm prone to bouts of depression, some of them reasonable, others completely ridiculous. This depressing habit is one I picked up from my environment, and can probably be attributed in part to the hormonal imbalance in my brain. But whatever the reasons, it is a reality of my existence. It doesn't take a lot to make it happen. But it doesn't take a lot to pull me out of it again.

I got this in the mail today from a friend I miss dearly. The note was originally folded into a lovely paper crane, which I kind of tried to fold back into place (badly) after reading it to take the photo. I've overlayed to kind of hide my inability to fold paper. I hope my friend reads this. I love her very much and can't wait to see her, which luckily I will very soon! (:x a million

She brightened up my entire day with her note, which is something she used to do every day in high school. Thank you for the reminder that I'm not a complete failure, I obviously can't be, since I've managed to have such lovely friends.

Dinosaur - Kisschasy

2010-06-24T09:43:00.003+10:00

I warned you about posts like this didn't I?

striped cardigan $29.99 @ Temt - I freaking love that store for its ability to emulate overpriced chain stores for a fraction of the price.
lace dress $59.99 @ Glassons - reduced to $27.00
lace up leather peep-toe heels $99.95 @ Novo - reduced to $45.00
brown knee high socks $10.00 for a pack of two @ Target

Click to view large

Went shopping yesterday but didn't really buy anything which was odd for me. Was mostly focussed on getting a present for a friend, and on facilitating my bestfriend's own shopping. Also went out to dinner with the boyfriend's family, and I am now more determined than ever to find a good recipe and make my own gnocchi from scratch. Gnocchi is one of my favourite foods ever, and the packet gnocchi I am always eating seriously has nothing on hand made gnocchi. Woo! New life goal - make gnocchi from scratch!

Wicked Little Girls - Esthero

2010-06-22T17:30:00.002+10:00

I'm a bargain shopper, and when I get bored I play around with my old purchases.

floral blouse with neck tie $89.99 @ sportsgirl - on sale for $29.99

velvet skirt $29.99 @ glassons - on sale for around $17.00 (I don't quite remember tbh)

choo ca choo patterned thigh high socks $10.00 @ the dangerfield mini store thing in the city myer

lace up canvas heels approximately $99.95 @ wittner shoes - on sale for around $50 (prices here might be slightly off as I bought them two years ago)

Click to view large and experience the general shittiness of my editing.
(I'm out of practice, kay?)

I seriously need a better hobby than dressing up in random outfits and taking inept self portraits. Playing with clothes is just so fun. I need lovely pretty models that are roughly my size. Or else I need to just put my camera on a shelf somewhere and get some semblance of a life. But until that happens, you can basically expect lots more dodgy posts like this one. Woo!

Black & Gold - Ellie Goulding

2010-06-21T19:18:00.002+10:00

Freedom after exams is kind of anti-climatic. There isn't really very much to do but muck around with my moleskine since most people haven't finished exams yet.

I'm bored and I'm in a bad mood.

New York, I Love You, But You're Bringing Me Down - LCD Soundsystem

2010-06-17T20:12:00.001+10:00

Good day today, I can now check off "Make Vodka Tiramisu" from my to-do list. Admittedly, making the tiramisu was more fun than actually eating it since we'd obviously already drank too much of the ingredients.

I've been really lazy with blogging, which I'm sorry about. Not that anyone really reads this, but I'm sorry to anyone who does or whatever. Idk, I'm rambling. Anyway, I wanted to ramble about boots. These boots to be precise:

These boots are my boots, which I should think is obvious due to the random flower overlay I enjoy so much. Anyway, I realise that owning these boots makes me just like every other girl who has a tumblr and takes grainy photos. But I thought I'd share why I am quite so happy that I finally own a pair. Before these came back into fashion recently, these boots weren't actually very easy to find at all. The kind of work-man type style they have hasn't exactly made them the most popular item in the world in the past.

However, once upon a time, there was a little Becky who instead of school shoes had a pair of boots kind of similar to these. Obviously they had less heel to them, and they were made of more of a suede sort of leather, but the similarities are there. As a 10 year old, I liked them because they kept my ankles warm and dry in winter. And I'd wear them all the time, even though I'd get laughed at by some of the other kids.

At the time I guess it was sort of upsetting, but I've always been the one who gets bullied, so I'm sort of used to it. People don't like differences, even when it is a stupid difference like a different pair of shoes. Sure, heaps of other kids wore random shoes they shouldn't. But they were all joggers and cool things like that. My European parents bought me boots, because they didn't want my feet to be cold, and I suppose they would have worn sturdy boots when they were my age or something.

I don't know, but it feels good to wear them and get compliments, instead of sneers. Best boots ever.

The Awful Sweetness of Escaping Sweet - Bright Eyes

2010-06-12T16:56:00.001+10:00

I have so much make-up it isn't really funny.
(inb4: it really hasn't made you any more attractive.)
(I'm really growing sick of blogging and the judgements I get because of it. And they're obviously all from tragic people from high-school who never quite got over how much they hated me. Which is odd because 99% of these people who "hate" me know fuck all about me.)
So today I decided to rearrange it so it wasn't all just kind of lying around everywhere. Plus, I had so many things that needed to be thrown out it wasn't even funny. Basically I went from this mess:

To this lovely, ordered collection in a nice box my mother bought me because she's pleased with me for studying for exams. If only she really knew...

Sorry about the funky image overlaying there, but I figured it'd make a boring image more interesting. Plus I've been sticking to shooting in RAW mode with my Nikon lately because a) I love the grainy feel it produces in my images and b) I happen to really like image overlay. It makes boring photos seem slightly more intriguing. Blah, blah, blah I'm a photo-nerd, etc.

Additionally, I wanted to take as many photos of the beautiful flowers I got from my boyfriend for our two year anniversary as possible. I don't understand why cut flowers can't just live forever. It is one of the harsh realities of life. Turns out that shining a torch under roses and taking photos of the shadows it makes on the ceiling is kind of fun. But I don't feel that the photos were excellent enough for me to want to blog them, but I do plan to play around with shadows more often.

Instead have an overlayed set of photos of the flowers. I realise this isn't exciting for anyone aside from me, but that's okay.

What might be more exciting, but I'm kind of doubtful about this too, are photos of two of my recent purchases. Only two of them though, because it is sort of depressing when I turn up somewhere wearing a new item of clothing and I am told "oh hey that's the dress off your blog." As if it is a surprise that I actually wear the clothes in my real life and not just for the sake of photographing them and putting them here. It is all very surprising.

Really these are mainly for the benefit of my best friend, but you can all pretend you're fascinated by the clothing I own. I mean, I like to think I'm stylish... sometimes.

This is my bargain shirt, which cost me only $7 at Portmans. It might be difficult to tell since the shirt itself is generally kind of creased because I'm lazy and sort of inept at ironing, but the sleeves have this cool sort of folded thing to them. The colour is lovely and I like the semi-round collar. Plus, did I mention it was $7?

I couldn't pass up how adorable the little tie was at the neck of this shirt, and the lovely little fabric-covered buttons. I'm such a sucker for small details. This shirt looks far more flattering on an actual body rather than just hanging aimlessly and wearing it makes me feel a bit like a sailor scout.

I really desperately want to take photos of people other than myself. I'm going to recruit some of my friends for this purpose soon. So look out guys. But seriously, if anyone wants to be in one of my lame photo shoots, or just wants to make me happy by pretending to want to be in one of my lame photo shoots, then like let me know.

Anyway, I really should study for my last two exams. And I have absolutely nothing left to blog about. I'm just kind of drifting through life.

Cruel Intentions - Simian Mobile Disco

2010-06-09T20:09:00.003+10:00

Today was my two year anniversary with my beloved boyfriend. I had to spend most of the day doing a law exam, but I think/hope I aced the exam and I did get to see my boyfriend for a lame indoor picnic and lots of kisses. (:

Not sure if I can possibly be more boring than I already am being. I haven't done anything other than study, procrastinate and... oh! I made cookies! I've been thinking a lot about all the things I'm going to do once exams are over and I have a wholeeee month of freedom. Because obviously that is more useful than studying. So far I've got this:

make vodka tiramisu with my bestfriend.
do a photoshoot with one of my lovely, lovely friends.
watch seasons one and two of 30 Rock with my boyfriend. (:
fill pages of my moleskine.
go on a picnic with my boyfriend.
feed ducks.
veronica mars marathon with some lovliess.
my friend's 18th.
find out about university transfer options.
find a thrifted copy of catcher in the rye.
buy more boots.
try and do one of those weird bathtub-related photoshoots.
find people to photograph. lots of people. any people.

I'm such a boring person. I'll add more if I think of them.

Dance In The Dark - Lady Gaga

2010-06-03T11:25:00.002+10:00

Woo, so I'm back in my blogging glory.

I realise no one missed me, but I'm cool with that. I didn't actually miss blogging. Which is so so so strange. Admittedly I did a short stint moonlighting as a pony which was interesting and probably makes no sense to anyone. Explore my sidebar and you might get it. Or not.

The real reason I'm probably back and blogging is because I'm on my university study week and I should actually be studying so that my average can stay at a distinction rather than plummeting into pass territory. My brain won't listen to me though, and it insists on not letting me study. How useful.

What I've been doing instead is messing around with my new moleskine and an old copy of Emma. (Yes, I bought yet another moleskine, mainly because the ones I already had were respectively too big and too fond of reminding me that I lack the creativity a squared one requires.)

Yep, I am clearly a regular party animal. Bet you all missed reading about my life. Wooo.

Actually, what is a party animal anyway? A dog wearing a shiny hat? Maybe I am more interesting to read about than a dog in a shiny hat. Maybe not. Perhaps this is a new idea I can capitalise on.

Received lovely flowers yesterday, as well as the flu. But I think the two cancel each other out, so I'm pretty much back where I started.

Maybe not, who knows. If anyone is bored feel free to check out the bulk of my photography, which I am currently attempting to post all in one place, namely here. ← click. (The link to my photography tumblr can also be found through side-bar surfing, hurrah!)

I like that it actually looks like there is some sort of flowing concept throughout all my photography when it is all placed side by side. Realistically though it's just a bunch of random shots for my blog and general amusement. Anyway, I think it is time for me to go and do some reading before I fail my exams. Failed exams do not lead to general amusement, not at all.

Inevitable - Anberlin

2010-05-31T08:34:00.003+10:00

Isn't it just hilarious how quickly the best day can turn into the worst?

Jungle Drum - Emiliana Torrini

2010-05-19T20:34:00.002+10:00

I was thinking.

Is being in a relationship where you've been through everything together and you know each other's good points and bad points inside out a good thing?

Does dealing with major adversity or just general fuckwittery during early stages of your relationship pretty much guarantee that it is fucked?

Isn't it bad to be with someone who knows all the bad parts of your life?

Shouldn't they just know the good parts?

The good things about you.

This isn't anything personal and I haven't broken up with my boyfriend or anything.

So please don't attack my formspring.

I'm just curious if anyone thinks that there are certain pollutants that just ruin a relationship for good.

And if maybe relationships where you don't face the bad things, just work out better for everyone involved.

Let me know. Somehow.

E-Pro - Beck

2010-05-15T16:42:00.003+10:00

I'm currently learning to drive, and I've done like 3 hours so far. Driving is really proving to be a challenge for me. I was trying to work out why, and I realised that it has a lot to do with skill, or a lack thereof.

Like for example, another new thing I have learned to do recently is write law essays. I am still finding this a bit hard to do, but the level of difficulty is not in the same range as driving. With writing law essays, I have my past skill of writing English essays to turn to. I have done something similar and so my prior knowledge is helping me out.

As far as driving is concerned, there is absolutely nothing that I have ever done that is at all like driving, which is probably why my general thoughts when I'm driving are along the lines of:

"why am I doing this? how far do i turn the wheel? i think i turned it too far. why are the windscreen wipers on? i didn't turn them on. stop wiping dammit. omg there's a truck! i'm going to crash and die! i am too small to be driving, i bet i look stupid. why am i so small? i am too small. he wants me to do a turn? i don't do things like that... SAVE THE CHILDREN. oh, i'm still alive. cooool. wow this is fast, oh i'm only doing 20. fuck i forgot the blinker. please don't let me crash into a tree. etc etc."

I am however, (very) slowly getting better at it, and I'm sure I'll eventually be an awesome driver... or at least a passable one. I guess the whole point of this blog post was that it is actually really hard to learn new things, something I never really noticed since I haven't really learnt anything that is actually completely new since I was like 8, mostly every "new" thing I do is somehow based on something I already knew how to do.

(Can I just point out that I tried to find a driving related picture to put in this entry, but the only thing remotely close I could find on any of my memory cards was this old picture I liked of my boyfriend sitting in his car waiting for me outside school.)

The good news is that my lovely boyfriend is an excellent driver, which is useful because by the looks of it it is going to take me approximately two years to do all 120 of my driving hours. I'm trying to be more motivated about it, since getting my provisional license is going to mean freedom, which is something I really desperately want.

I was thinking about it on one of my various train rides the other day (I spend too much time on trains), how much I like that I have the ability to independently go places, and how much better I've gotten at being my own person since uni started. The atmosphere is so much better in that, no one finds it odd if you are on your own, and I don't have any of high school friends with me at uni, so it is a lot easier to leave the whole attached at the hip/herd mentality thing behind.

I'm doing better at being in larger groups now than I was before also, which is even more of an achievement, since admittedly I've always been a bit of a loner, but I've never really been good with interacting with large groups of people, much preferring to stick to one on one sort of situations. But anyway, this is getting all boring and introspective and whatnot (when all I really wanted to say was that driving is scary), so have a picture of my cat and a lovely weekend. ♥

Oh and in other news, one of my images is actually quite popular on polyvore, the down side is that it links back to some random girl's tumblr. Isn't it just so lovely when other people get the credit for things that don't belong to them?

A Movie Script Ending - Death Cab For Cutie

2010-05-12T18:23:00.001+10:00

I don't have much to blog about. I just got an adorable ring today and I wanted to post pictures of it because I think it is just the most wonderful thing I've seen in ages. Doesn't it just make you want to drink tea? I think we all know how I feel about teacups! It is very exciting that I now get to wear one on my finger, and a pink one nonetheless!

Hope everyone is having a happy Wednesday. Mine has been a tad bit shit, but I'm resilient so I've decided tomorrow is going to be better, and then Friday is going to be absolutely wonderful. But for now, I'm off to try and do an assignment. (:

(nts: stop biting nails.)

I've Got Friends - Manchester Orchestra

2010-05-11T17:57:00.002+10:00

I am fond of telling myself that "life is too short."

I use this phrase as an excuse waaaay more than I should. It just works so well as a way to convince myself to do the things I want to, even when I know I probably shouldn't. They are also the words that I use to convince myself not to stand up for myself sometimes. When I feel like I've been mistreated, I had this horrible habit where I'd just kind of smile through it and then go home later and cry manically into my pillow. Why? Because life is too short to waste it fighting. However, that is a negative example.

(But I'm working on that.)

My point here is, that life is too short. And don't you dare chime in and say "How is life short? Name one thing you'll ever do that's longer!" If that's what you were thinking please bite your tongue and keep your reply far away from me. I'm not saying that life is short in comparison to other things, rather I mean that there are so many things to do and so many things to try, that a lifetime surely isn't long enough for them all.

And even if it were, I've got all these terrible inhibitions about the stupidest of things that I just can't seem to wrap my head around. I stop myself from doing so many things I really want to, because I'm scared of what other people will think. I'm scared I'll look stupid or ugly or pathetic or needy. (Admittedly everyone is every single one of these things at some point in their lives, so I don't have much to fear.) I keep telling myself that life is too short to keep acting this way, but it doesn't seem to make a difference.

Want a stupid example? I have always loved red/hot pink lipstick, but I've been too afraid to wear it because I thought it would look stupid.

For the record, I realise it does look really horrible on me. Blah, blah, blah. (please don't bother spamming my formspring to remind me) But I figure, that taking little steps towards doing the things I want to do, but am too afraid to do, even if its something simple like wearing red lipstick, is probably a good thing. I'm so scared that I'm wasting my youth ~~taking ugly photos and blogging for an audience of like two people~~ being quiet and holding back.

I don't want to hold back any more. And, as bad as it sounds, I want to fight.

MakeDamnSure - Taking Back Sunday

2010-05-09T16:45:00.001+10:00

Today I bought something I've coveted for quite some time - a lovely pair of tailored shorts! The photo is a bit awkward because it was taken through my dirty mirror, but they're a lovely suit sort of grey.

They were lovely and only $40 at Glassons, which is officially my favourite store ever. This is mainly because I feel like Sportsgirl seems to have gone a bit downhill lately. I mean, the clothes are still lovely and I still shop there, but I find myself shopping there less frequently because they seem to overestimate just how much they should be charging for their products.

Growing up, Sportsgirl was always somewhere you could get relatively cheap, stylish clothes. The quality has always been great but affordable. Lately the prices have gotten a bit extreme, and it is so hard to part with the money they charge for some of their clothes when I know I could find something similar for a fraction of the price elsewhere.

For example I recently bought a lovely black velvet mini for $14(!!!) on sale at Glassons and it was almost identical to one from Sportsgirl I wanted, which was $80. That's less than a quarter of the price. I'm not being cheap here, it is just genuinely concerning that a brand like Sportsgirl (which doesn't boast a designer label etc) is charging such high prices for items of clothing that can easily be purchased for a fraction of the price either at vintage stores or even at other chain stores.

Anyway, rant over.

I also bought a lovely play-suit from Glassons today. I don't usually like the concept behind play-suits and it annoys me to no end to basically have to strip in order to go to the bathroom, but I loved the pattern and that it was made of a light cotton.

It was such a steal for only $20 and looks wonderful coupled with patterned stockings, a random red three-quarter sleeved, cardigan I bought from some unknown (and totally cheap) store for $5 a while back and my brogues with the ribbons for laces. Actually those brogues are another of my favourite purchases. I bought them months ago for only $15 which is an amazing price to pay for shoes.

I may be (more than) a little addicted to shopping.

Nineteen - Tegan and Sara

2010-05-08T22:36:00.001+10:00

I somehow like myself better when I'm semi-obscured by darkness. Maybe there's this idea of mystery there, in that you can't see me clearly enough to make out my flaws. I think my main flaw is that I love too much and too intensely. I'm the kind of person who is likely to bombard you with every single one of my flaws within moments of meeting you. That way, further down the track you can't change your mind about me, or stop loving me, because you already knew everything that was wrong with me to begin with.

Nice Guys Finish Last - Cobra Starship

2010-05-07T19:54:00.001+10:00

In my love and Charlie Chaplin induced joy yesterday I forgot to mention that I bought the new Frankie Magazine Sweet Treats cookbook. It is lovely!

It is the most beautiful cookbook I own, and believe me - I own many. Speaking of which, I've been creating a handwritten collection of my favourite recipes in a random book I bought for $5 ages ago because I liked that it had very thin lines. I decorated the book with random photos and such a while ago but I hadn't found a purpose for it. Luckily I've got one now! It looks a little something like this:

And finally, since I'm on the topic of baking/cooking. In some kind of odd reverse mother's day situation my mother bought me these two wonderful things!

A cake decorating set! It has an icing bag and various nozzles for it, as well as stamps and an icing smoother! It is excellent! I cannot wait to bake a cake just so I can ice it! I may have to do so for mothers day!

This is absolutely genius! It starts with a light blue mixing bowl, a dark blue colander, a dark green sieve a light green mixing bowl with measurements and 4 measuring cups (yellow, orange, red and pink.) It is lovely how they all link into each other!

Looks like I have baking to do!

Who Knows - Natasha Bedingfield

2010-05-06T19:40:00.001+10:00

I had a lovely, lovely day today. Today was just the way a day should be. You should never ever be too old for playgrounds, you should always be brave, even if it means getting very, very dizzy and life should be a constant game of spot Charlie Chaplin. I spotted him twice on the same street!

Standing around awkwardly on the side-walk, contorting weirdly with anticipation while looking for boys in red shirts is an even more fun game - especially when it helps you find a kiss. You should always be so in love that you make old ladies smile on trains.

Airplanes - B.O.B. ft Hayley Williams

2010-05-05T21:28:00.001+10:00

I didn't even last a week.
(score.)

This morning, I was on the train and I was staring at the door of the train (a new technique I've started using to avoid looking at any other passengers so I don't accidentally offend them - I've actually offended someone by glancing at them, true story). Anyway, since I'm generally a pretty vapid person, I was staring at my own reflection. (No chance I'm going to offend her...) And at one point I realised that there was something carved into the window. You know, in that horrible dodgy way that "cool" teenagers do, presumably with their car keys or something. Although it beats me why anyone with car keys would be riding a train...

Anyway, it was the letters W-H-O. So it was a toss up between a World Health Organisation enthusiast or the word who. And it was right on the reflection of my face. (A short vandal must've done it - how exciting.)

Maybe I was just sleep deprived since it was about 7.30 in the morning, but for some reason the image spoke to me. Please enjoy a (very) rough facsimile of the image:

If this image speaks to you also, I suggest getting some kind of mental help.

My point is, that I was probably looking for an excuse to blog, but I kept thinking that maybe there is nothing wrong with being who I am. Nothing wrong with writing about my boring life and posting up my sub-par photography. Because the truth is, I like it. I like myself and I like my photography. Just because I was wondering WHO I was exactly didn't mean I had to cut myself off from any public avenues of doing so.

I've spent the past (almost) week telling myself that I am no good at photography and that I should stop doing all the artsy crap I usually do because it is a waste of my time. And then I've gone and taken secret photographs anyway. I've gone and fucking scrapbooked. I have a secret scrapbook.

And then, just when I thought I couldn't get any lamer - I put on an outfit this morning and was so pleased with it and thought "OMG OUTFIT POST" but got really sad when I realised I didn't do that kind of stuff anymore.

If that isn't a sign of WHO I truly am, I really don't know what is.

Then I got on a train and stared at the word WHO.Which for some reason made me decide it is okay to admit I was wrong. So here I am, blogging again. I apologise to anyone who thought they'd gotten rid of me.

Pieces of Me - Ashlee Simpson

2010-04-29T12:02:00.002+10:00

This blog entry is just a pre-emptive measure, I don't know if what I'm planning on doing is going to stick or not, but in the case that it does I just want to make sure that there is some clear explanation. Allow me to stop being so cryptic and start from the beginning:

One thing that people don't seem to realise about me, is that I am the kind of person who has serious commitment issues. I find it incredibly hard to stick with anything for too long. However, when I find something I truly like, I lock onto it and dedicate myself to it completely.

I feel that maybe I've been too locked on to this blog, and onto photography and I haven't really had the time to actually live my life. A recent memory card malfunction has made me realise that I can't keep living my life behind the camera, because if something happens to the camera then everything is gone. I need to make my own memories, instead of spending so much time capturing the memories of others.

Because the thing about capturing the memories of others is that you either end up capturing something they didn't want you to, or you end up being forgotten yourself. I believe that I have honestly just become my camera and my blog and that there are few people who really know what I am like aside from this idea that I am some artsy indiefag who is great at parties because she takes professional looking photos and puts them on facebook for you.

I realise that my supposed rising cool factor and probably the number of friends I'm going to have if I stop hiding behind my camera and my blog is going to decrease, but I also realise that I'm probably going to become more confident and feel more like a whole person. It is the shittiest thing in the world when you don't feel like you're a person any more, and I mean, I'm 18 - an adult; I was kind of hoping that I could get all this "WHO AM I ?" type of shit out of the way before I stop being a teenager.

It is so hard having people only know you based on what you blog about and feel that they know you based on it. It's even worse when you know some people only really wanting you around to capture photographic evidence of their "awesomeness." I guess I probably should have thought of that a while ago, but I never really did.

So as I said, I don't know if I'll be able to stick to this or if I'll come running back, but I think it is time for me to spend more quality, offline time with my soulmates and my washing machine.

I'd Rather Have - Manchester Orchestra

2010-04-27T13:01:00.002+10:00

Lazy days that actually allow for productivity are tip top in my books, provided there are plenty of daydreams and a pile of good books to turn to when work starts to become strenuous.

(click to view large/make the writing more readable/uncover my latest daydream)

From bottom to top:

Serendipity - Melanie La'Brooy
(I seriously just love everything she's ever written.)
A Mild Suicide - Christina Koning
(only just started this book, but I am really enjoying it so far)
Jerk California - Jonathan Friesen
(read good things about this, looking forward to reading it.)
Notes From The Teenage Underground - Simmone Howell
(this book is probably aimed at adolescents, but I love the realistic ways it captures emotions, it is one of those books that kind of freaked me out by how accurately it managed to express my feelings for me)
Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
(absolute classic)
Hallam Foe - Peter Jinks
(kind of quirky, I didn't think I actually liked this book when I read it, but then I realised that the thought of putting it down without finding out how it ends made me feel a bit sad. The vague ending make me feel even sadder, I suggest reading it and then making up your own more fulfilling ending.)
The Perks of Being a Wallflower - Stephen Chbosky ♥
(words cannot express my love for this book, it has so many amazing quotes and insights. If you've never read it, please do so, it'll change the way you look at the world.)

I am perhaps a little too pleased that the weather is suddenly freezing. I look horrible in purple, but I take so much pleasure in wearing my giant purple Bonds hoodie when I'm sitting around the house. Bonus points if I can combine it with pyjama pants or tracksuit pants that are too ugly to photograph.

In other news, my printer seems to think it is funny to print things at the slowest speed imaginable. It really isn't.

Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5

2010-04-26T18:46:00.001+10:00

An example of how little things can make your day better:

(excuse the shitty mobilephone photography)

Walked past this cute little guy on the way to university - on a public holiday. There are so many things fundamentally wrong with that, but I don't mind because seeing this just made my day. I've probably walked past the wall this is painted onto like 30 times and never noticed. Seeing him and snapping a photo put this giant smile on my face, on a day when I didn't think smiling was possible.

Another thing that made me smile is the basement bookstore in railway square. $5 books can raise my spirits like nothing else. (Helped that I was there with my best friend.)

Let me juxtapose this bliss with something that pisses me off. Like, really pisses me off - girls who make their boyfriends carry their handbags.

What.

The.

Hell.

There was this horrible obnoxious girl on the train to the city today who had an absolutely tiny handbag, like it was the size of a wallet. You would think that a tiny handbag like that wouldn't be particularly heavy, so you'd think that she could have held it herself, right? Well of course not, that'd be too normal. Instead, she forced her boyfriend to carry it, while she kinda... swayed... I guess is the best word, around the carriage wearing kitten heels, this stupid looking zebra-print sack thing with a face on the front and these horrible shiny stockings.

I also have a deep hatred for kitten heels, but that's off-topic. I don't actually mean to be judging her by her appearance, I don't usually do that, but the way she was behaving, as if she thought she was some kind of cute pretty princess and we should all watch her fling herself aimlessly around the carriage, tottering in her stupid heels - well she made me think of the worst kind of woman.

I do not understand why, any-respecting female, or any self-respecting man for that matter, would allow themselves to be in a situation where your boyfriend is holding your handbag. WHY? The only reasons I can see for this are:

Your bag is incredibly heavy!
In this situation, it is probably preferable to remove the heavy items and ask your boyfriend to hold those rather than the whole bag though. But for the sake of the situation lets pretend your handbag is full of tampons made of concrete, obviously making taking them out a non-option.
You think it is adorable to pretend to be all weak and girly in front of your boyfriend.
Well, allow me to enlighten you, it is not. You are merely undermining your own intelligence as well as the longevity of your relationship. A relationship where you are not yourself is not going to last. The guy may find you adorable while you're flailing and unable to carry your super heavy bag, but he is thinking with his dick. It is easy to turn a man on physically, the real challenge is turning him on mentally. So give yourself a challenge and give your relationship a chance, make him respect you.
You like the idea of having a whipped boyfriend.
This may sound a bit hypocritical coming from me, since I think that whipped guys do make the most loving and attentive boyfriends. HOWEVER, the thing that people often take for granted when I say this, is that it is not only the boy who has to be 'whipped'. Both people in the relationship need to be 'whipped'. Actually, the term 'whipped' pisses me off in general. What I mean by it, is that you put each other's feelings first and do anything you can for each other. I honestly don't understand why the term 'whipped' and all its negative connotations is applied to this idea, because realistically, carrying your girlfriend's handbag and just generally acting like a lapdog has absolutely nothing to do with caring about her. It is just stupid because she can carry the damn thing herself. Helping her with something she genuinely cannot do? Now that is being a good ('whipped') boyfriend.

Anyway, I'm going to stop now before I ruin my semi-good mood. I am going to break into a giant smile every time I pass that graffiti now. (:

Naïve Orleans (Acoustic) - Anberlin

2010-04-24T20:02:00.002+10:00

Bought some lovely black lace ups today. They're very simple which means they'll be easy to match and they are made of the softest leather.

But really, that isn't even vaguely interesting. ):

I don't actually have much to blog about, I just liked the photo of my new shoes and wanted to post it before life moved on and I actually had something interesting to blog about. Really, all I've been doing lately is watching tv shows with my boyfriend and engaging in quiet (and kind of disheartening) introspection.

Oh and I bought my shoes and took that photo, obviously. You know, I think the reason why I love photography comes down to two things:
1) lighting
2) focus
I was looking through a folder of some of my old photos and found some that I really liked/forgot I had taken. I've decided that instead of turning this blog entry into some mock philosophical rambling about feelings, I'm going to share some of my favourite old photography. If you know me well and have seen these before, I apologise.

Hope everyone is having a lovely weekend. ♥

Eet - Regina Spektor

2010-04-23T22:50:00.001+10:00

I think I'm a little obsessed with my boyfriend and the faces he pulls. I'm constantly assaulting him with my camera. I'm going to end up with a vast collection of photos of him pulling random faces in moody lighting, well if I'm lucky anyway!

I'm going to stop gushing now, because it is the most boring thing in the world listening to people in relationships ramble about how happy they are. I was pretty unhappy for the most of the week anyway, for non-boyfriend-related reasons though, obviously. I honestly think that procrastination is a mental disorder. I cannot understand why I have the compulsion to do stupid stuff instead of assignments and then spend the night before crying and typing like a mad woman. I got everything done on time, like I always do, but surely I could go without the extra emotional problems. I'm going to vow to stop doing everything at the last minute, but as usual I'm probably going to end up leaving things till the last minute anyway.

Actually, there's an assignment I'm semi-excited about for no reason. It's for the ethics course I have to do with my degree for no particular reason really. Somehow I'm really excited at the prospect of having to write an essay that is actually about my opinions on life. Not that I didn't "enjoy" writing 2000 words on the adversarial system for my law class, but it seems like a bit of a bummer that everything I'm learning in law at the moment isn't really applicable to anything except the law, if you get my drift. Like, it isn't stuff that will come up in daily conversations or help me make life decisions. Not that ethics quite fits that bill, but I like knowing how life works, how people work. I wish I was doing arts/law not commerce law, but don't tell anyone.

Repeat after me: I WILL BE EMPLOYABLE, MAKE LOTS OF MONEY AND THEN SPEND MY MONEY DOING ARTSY/POINTLESS/CREATIVE THINGS I LIKE.